rough time

what thread @outlander I'll take a look

I know exactly what you are referring to @outlander but as has been said to you before - your sister's are ok and ok now with what happened and it wasn't your fault. I understand you still have flashbacks though and that is hard to deal with so I can see why it triggered you. Just think of your sister's here Hon - they are ok with it now and that is half the battle.

You take these things on in a really hard way @outlander - when you break down everything that is going on for you and them compare them to all the things that are positive then you have a more balanced life than you imagine - it is just that the negatives seem to be more prominent in your life and they take up so much of your thinking space.

I know you have had a little trouoble with your new car but you HAVE a new car - so there is a pretty big positive and only a small negative. It is the same with your physical health - eg. your hand is still giving you grief but it is getting better so that is a positive. This is one of those nights when you need to think of the positives and turn the negative talk on it;s head Hon.

It is how to turn around your thinking when you are feeling so vulnerable @outlander - like you are tonight. If you continually dwell on all the negatives then you will never have the kind of life you wish for Hon. We are all victims of our own thinking at times - and those of us here with MIs are more prone to the negativity because of what we are dealing with - but that does not mean we have to constantly give in to that thinking - geez we have enough to deal with having a MI - so try to turn some of those negatives into positives ...remember the Zoe Method - that is exactly what you have done in the past and it has helped you.

I'll leave you with @Zoe7

@outlander

for now while I get my dinner. She's giving you great support, so I don't want to overwhelm you