rough time

@outlander that's such utter BS, and I'm so hopping mad right now that they've fobbed you off. What an idiot. I'm so sorry my angel you can't seen to get the help you need and deserve it. Try not to loose faith please, because this is more about them and not you. You are important and you matter. We'll do the best we can to help you through to that time <br>

@outlander - can you maybe see you GP weekly for support until then?

This is what happens when i reach out. I told them quite alot too. @Sans911
I reached out to 2 helplines yesterday at different stages and felt fobbed off yet again by both of them. One which disconnected me 😞
I see my gp end of next week. I can only take it week by week right now as she's so busy with patients and also volunteers at a nursing home a day a week so that days totally out.
I dont know what else to do. Its not fair on you guys.
Ive released quit abit for now, now im just numb. I dont know how much more i can take

@outlander - you are important my love. Stop apologising for being alive and needing support. Stuff whether your GP is busy. She needs to make time for you because you have very little support systems, you're not coping and other professionals are unwilling to engage with you for whatever reasons. I don't think it matter how much or how little you told them, which btw was a brave thing to do. As hard as it is whatever the issue is, I don't believe for a second it's because of you. I know you might find that hard to believe, but these professionals are people and have reacted in a human, unprofessional manner. They're insensitive to your acute needs, and perhaps overwhelmed with too many needy people. It's not right at all its never right.

And we are always here for each other. Because often all we have is here. Our safe place, our place of acceptance and non judgement and our place to listen no matter what the situation is. I might not always be online, but you're always, always in my thoughts and in a little corner of my heart is a special place for you.

Now im the one whose teary @Sans911 @Former-Member i have no more words ❤

@outlander well if their happy tears of feeling loved, accepted, cared about my angel then my heart and soul are happy 😊 and warm too. I'm right there sister, got you gently in my arms, stroking yourvhair and wiping away those tears. 😢😢😢🎶🎶🎶🎶

Yes sis they are happy tears and i wish u guys were really here @Sans911 ❤
I am so lost. I dont know what to do with myself. My mh is scaring the crap out of me. I have had these sleep deprivation/dissociation type before. It was a hard hit from both helplines and the mh team. I tried to open up and that was really hard and now im hesitating even more