rough time

I would tell you not too but at this piont I have realised that is not going to change how you feel. All I can do is to promise to be honest about how I am feeling my sweet.

@Lee82

Thanks for that babe. That means an enormous amount to me that you said that. @Former-Member

Ok I guess that's enough stalling.
yearerday I had to go to the shops to get some stuff and for some unknown reason I decided to go to a shopping center in another town. Just to get out for a drive I guess. Anyway I was walking the isle and I saw one of my abusers there. I froze in the isle I didn't know what to do. I couldn't move or speak. My hearing started to go funny and I started to shake uncontrollably. I actually don't even remember getting out the shops or driving home. @Former-Member

Oh my sweet, that would have been truly horrible for you. I am so sorry that you found yourself in that postion. It is no one wonder you where in such a state last to to begin with. It is terrifying to think that they are out there wondering around having a life and lets face it they probably dont even remember us or it.

I am just glad that how ever you managed it you got your self home where you where safe.

I completely understand why you wouldn't want to share that with us yesterday, it just breaks my heart that you felt like you could not lend on me for support yesterday.

What would Kimmy say???? @Lee82

Have a bowl of ice cream.
@Former-Member

funny bugger......

BE BRAVE, BE STRONG AND REMEMBER IT'S THEM THAT ARE WRONG....

Then have a bowl of ice crem... ( I am giggling at you and shaking my head)

@Lee82

How are you feelling now my love

@Lee82

That was my intention to make you laugh. I only wish I saw it. @Former-Member

be right back I am going to get a bowl now... @Lee82

Mixed emotions. I feel a bit of relief I was able to share it with you. When things like that happen I usually just have to act as if nothing happened and shut it away.

I am still trying to process it all. Hating myself for allowing him to still affect me so much. My anxiety has been extremely high all day and has not slowed down at all. I have been triggered by it all day. My body just goes into shock and the same sensations I felt yesterday overpower me again and again.
when I got home yesterday I just kept thinking that it didn't happen. That it wasn't him I saw. I was trying to convince myself I didn't see what I saw. I didn't want it to be real. I kept trying to remember just how I got out the shops. What happen to the items I had in my hand. Did I make a scene. Did he notice me and I'm still trying to process all that. @Former-Member