rough time

Sorry just had trouble explaining Bear's friend and keeping it in the guideline @Lee82

Sorry I should have followed my instincts and not said anything @Lee82

I think I understand. Honey it must be so hard trying to cater to all the needs of everyone when everyone has all sorts of different needs. I am so sorry honey. You go through so much. You must see just how strong you are. You endure so much everyday but yet you still function out in the world. You still have time and patience to be there for me, to look after your children to work. You truly are an inspiration. My heart is hurting for you my friend. Thank you for sharing that with me.
Love ya babe. @Former-Member

Why you say that honey? @Former-Member

Have you seen or read Fifty Shades of Grey? That will clear up any confusion you might still have. @Lee82

I haven't read it but I know about It. I figured thats what you meant about Bear. @Former-Member

I wish you won't say that, you should love a monster on any level my friend.

Your turn, how are you? Did your doctors appointment go well? How was home schooling Mr12 and Mr 8. How is Mr8 after spending the weekend with his father?

i am sorry I shared it, I am worried now. The moment I ported it I wanted it gone. You are the only person who knows (well as well as the whole forum) @Lee82

Please don't apologise. There is no judgement here remember. There is absolutely nothing to be worried about. I love you even more for sharing something so deep with me. For trusting me with that and for being so brave in telling me that.
please stop calling yourself a monster. You are NOT a monster.
@Former-Member

My doctors appointment was ok. Just needed to update my mental health plan. Home schooling went ok however poor mr8 coped a yelling from me and I feel like s**t. He was doing his work but just wasn't making an effort and kept making stupid mistakes. I lost my S**t and yelled at him. Poor kid burst into tears. I wasn't dealing with my emotions too well at that stage and I lost it.
mr8 was Happy to be home. The next couple day he will be ok then he will start going downhill again leading up to going back there. I hate sending them. It breaks my heart. @Former-Member

Don't be too hard on yourself Lee, I am it is difficult that home schooling gig. I remember the pain of watching D2 go downhill getting closer to her fathers week. We had court order share cared. One week with me and one week with him. It took it told on her big time. So I feel you upset and anguish watching your baby go through that. And you talk about my strength, look at what you go through every night and you still get up and be a mum that is stronger than anything I do.

But you missed the question about how you are feeling my love. @Lee82