rough time

I'm ok...just starting to get worked up. I am so tired trying to control my anxiety is getting harder.
what about you my beautiful friend?
@Former-Member

How can I help you my love @Lee82

First I need to one how your feeling? Are you safe? @Former-Member

My sweet caring Lee, yes I am safe and it doesn't matter either way. I need know that you are ok even if I am not. It works both ways.

thank you for caring my love

@Lee82

I'm so tired that I'm pretty emotional right now. Can't stop the tears. I don't want to go through another night of flashbacks and SH. Im so sore. Can't take much more of it.
@Former-Member

Oh god Lee, please tell me what I can do.
please honey how do I protect you how do I keep you safe. How can I take away even just a little of your pain.

💖 @Lee82

I don't know anymore. @Former-Member

Please stay with me baby

@Lee82

I'm here babe and I am safe I am just over all this s**t. Every night has just been the same story. Flashback then SH. @Former-Member

It sucks that we run the same programs every night, night after night after night. The only difference is that the SH monster is normally not strong enough in my case, (although it's been stronger the last couple) yet my beautiful friend keeps losing her fight. This is not fair, how do we manage it, how do we fight it together.

I am exhausted but to scared to sleep, to scared of what horrors I will see, to scared because when I open my eyes I want to see a good morning from my sweet friend.

We have to find a way to start knocking that creature down. If we want to so day some how have that walk on the beach talking shit the we have to. We have to help we have to try. Yes I know my sweet that we have been trying but we have been trying alone. We have each other now let's face this shit storm together

@Lee82i love you