rough time

Mine wasn't forced under the threat of harm it was just forced to say a very bad thing that made very bad things happen.
@Former-Member

Hahahaha....got ya!!! 😂😂

@Former-Member

I know that me asking you isn't causing the pain but me asking brings up those memories which in turn causes you pain.
@Former-Member

Again this was still a forced action, I believe you would never said what you did if you had a choice. @Lee82

This is where I am worried we are causing you pain by bringing up memories that you may not have been thinking about.

I am sorry my love

But you didn't bring them up, these are the demons I am fighting today. I was fighting these demons long before you asked honey. These where my flashbacks last night, these are what caused my SH these are what pushed the rest of them over the edge last night on top off Izzy/Nikki's issues last night.

please honey @Lee82 don't let this hurt you

Nope it's been in my head for a few days actually. I have been trying to process what happened and why things unfolded the way they did plus the guilt has been killing me. The selfishness of my mother is something I cannot comprehend. I could never do that to my children.
I have been on an anger journey towards mum lately and this is just one memory that has been haunting me. @Former-Member

Do you need to change the subject honey? I don't want what happened last night to repeat itself again tonight.
@Former-Member

I am very sorry honey. The stuff your mother has put you through sounds unfathomable, she is a nasty person who definitely should face what she put you and the trauma it has caused. I am not telling you to confront her because that is just not possible for you YET. I believe though you will be able to stand up to her eventually

@Lee82 sending you the most loving hug I can offer

Where are you my love @Lee82

I'm here babe. Sorry I was just waiting til you answered my last message before I said anymore. @Former-Member