rough time

My little dude is 21 this October. He was a chubba bubba. We use to call him fat boy I know it sounds mean but it was never in a hurt full way. We had to stop though when the day I asked him his name, he was about 3 he said "C..... Ed..... Fat boy M....." so when he thought us was part of his name he we stopped. I remember walking him to day about the same age when he asked me "mummy do you know everything?" When I said no his reply was "That's ok because I do" 😂😂😂

You don't have to answer this question honey if you don't want to but what did you mean when you said you've hurt others? You don't need to talk about it if you don't want to but I feel like this is something that is affecting you.
@Former-Member

Honey it is hurting in a big way but I think it's one of those thing we can't talk about and I would be scared of telling you anyways.

But I have made some terrible choices in my teenage years (Bear) and right now the self hate rhetoric is strong. Some where made independently but more where forced under threats of harm.

@Lee82 , how are you doing tonight?

The thoughts of them are making me feel like I am going to be sick. @Lee82

No that's ok honey. No need to go any further but please don't ever be afraid to tell me anything. There is absolutely no judgement from me. I too have done things that have hurt people. Bad things that I am not proud of however it was also forced but doesn't make the action any less my fault.
as teenagers we make a lot of stupid mistakes and in your situation with no parental guidance or love or care you are bound to make a lot of mistakes.
@Former-Member

I'm so sorry I didn't mean to cause you pain honey. It just seemed like you needed to talk about. I guess I read into that wrong. I'm sorry 😞

@Former-Member

Sweetie you need to realise that you are not causing me pain, the memories are painful, my self hate is painful, but you asking because you are concerned is not.

most people would ignore my pain, if I say it's nothing they wouldn't bother to go Hey I don't think your being honest they would just change the subject and forget.

YOU DONT CAUSE ME PAIN

Love you heaps my sweet @Lee82

You need to stop.... forced actions under threat of harm are not your fault. Do you hear me????

@Lee82

Right there you just said it....forced actions under the threat of harm are NOT your Fault. So believe that!
@Former-Member

Cheeky shit😂💖 I will if you do

@Lee82