rough time

Was he like this for the whole 8 years, if not how many years was he a jerk?

@Lee82

On some level he was always an asshole to me I just didn't see it. It just got worse as time went on. He was never there for me emotionally and never supported me. One example...when we were pregnant with our first child about 6 weeks into the pregnancy I was experiencing severe stomach cramps in the middle of the night so reluctantly he took me to emergency. Whilst waiting for the doctor to see me he kept falling asleep in the chair snoring. He got annoyed that I kept waking him so he went to the car and slept in there whilst I was stressing that something was very wrong all by myself. After the doctor saw me he decided to keep me in overnight for observation. I tried calling his phone to tell him but I didn't answer so I had to go to the car to wake him. I told him what the doctor said and so he went home not even walking me back to my bed and went to work the next day. I spent the night in hospital all alone, scared and crying. The next day I had to find someone to come pick me up. He didn't even call to see how I or the baby was. That should have been my first clue. That is one of many stories.
sorry it was so long

@Former-Member

Lee, if you don't want to talk about this stuff just let me know babe ok. I am deliberately asking one question at a time to keep you here with me.

I don't know how but I can sense how bad you are and it worries me my love.

Remember I am here and always listening, always wanting to hear your story, your reasons, I want to hear your voice. I want you to be free with what you tell me, I also want you to feel safe and support. Look for the good in me and I will in you and together we can beat this sh*t.

@Lee82

Oh no I meant here to help with the kids etc...I'm so sorry I didn't say that properly. you are the only one I have in my corner honey. The only person I trust and care about. @Former-Member

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I'm so sorry babe. I feel terrible. I don't want you to think I was dismissing you. That was not my intention. I was talking about my mum and exh. I just didn't word it right...you have no idea how grateful I am to have met you. You are my angel and I care about you more than anyone in my life right now besides my boys. Please forgive me for not expressing myself properly. 😞😥

@Former-Member

If I feel like I can't talk about something I will let you know I promise. I just feel bad because I know you are going through a lot right now as well and I don't want to burden you with my shit.
@Former-Member

Sorry babe, I had to walk away for a minute. That makes me so angry. @Lee82

I'm so sorry. I don't want to make things worse for you my friend. If you can't hear this stuff right now please let me know.
@Former-Member

Just stop Bub, you are not making it worse or adding anything to me but concern for you. I am angry at exh, how dare he treat you that way. How dare he show such a lack of love and support towards you and his unborn child. HOW F**KEN DARE HE!!!!!!!!!!!! So you put up with this shit for eight years as well as all the bull your so-called mother put you through and they both continue to do this to you. You are not going to get through this in a heartbeat, you have years of neglect and abuse to recover from and that shit is tough.

I love you @Lee82

Please honey there is nothing to forgive. This one is on me, I knew what you meant. I just wanted to remind you that you were not completely alone. It is I that should have worded it better. I am so sorry sweetheart ❤️

@Lee82