rough time

No worries gorgeous. 💕

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Why would he walk in and say good morning Mrs Henderson!!!!! HE LEFT ME

I am glad you got some rest, hope your mr8 was ok and got back to sleep. I fully understand too now with home schooling it may take you a while to reply so please don't apologise for that. Mr12 and Mr8 come first always.

I am scared that Bear went for a walk in the middle of the night, while we live in a quiet street our suburb is not the safest place to be walking at night. I read Kimmy's message and if you didn't understand she was telling that exh2 is her friend and she is five years old. Thank you for you patience with me, thank you for listening to all of me, thank you for not running away when my true self showed up and above all thank you for your friendship @Lee82 💜Nikki

Omg would someone PLEASE PLEASE calm down the little person who has been crying/screaming for the last hour or so.

Hits so many buttons to hear a little one this upset, I can imagine what their caregiver is doing or not doing as the case maybe.

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Hey honey, he was probably just mucking around. Don't worry about it too much sweets.
It's been a pretty interesting morning. So many unknowns but we are getting through it ok. The boys have been fantastic.
yes Bear went for a walk last night and your right not the safest thing to do. But she checked in with me afterwards. Had I known that's what she was going to do I would have tried to convince her otherwise.
honey you are very welcome. You are my friend and I accept who you are completely and wholly. I will always be here for you no matter what!!
how are you feeling today my friend?
has the child stopped screaming?
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Still can't thank you enough @Lee82 💜 I am super pleased everything is going well with the little men this morning. 💜

the little has stopped but unfortunately not before flashbacks of my own mothers neglect kicked in. How I didn't die before the age of 5 is beyond me. If the flashbacks are bad what was it like form birth to five for me? I don't have any memories of that time.

I slept on and off for about 20 minutes at a time so pretty exhausted today. I am feeling inner child's pain and it's killing me. And before you ask I have already sent my counsellor a message about how I am doing today.

my sweet friend how are you doing today

I am so proud of you babe for taking that step to contact your counsellor. That shows self care right there.
It brakes my heart that you endured so much pain from my parents.no child should go through any of that. They should be locked up for what they did to you.
I can understand that you may be feeling your inner child's pain especially after hearing that poor child's screams. How does going for a walk sound right now? Get some fresh air, some exercise and it may help reduce what you are feeling right now.
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@Lee82 , maybe our mothers could be cell buddies because from what you have shared she was a lot worse then mine. You didn't deserve that at all.

I was thinking I wish I could give you my counsellor's details because I think you would get along great with her and I think that is really important for healing to work well. 💜

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That is absolutely horrifying Nikki. I cannot believe she did that to you. You must have been in a lot of pain honey...I am sending you the gentlest of hugs right now...❤️🧡💛💚💙

I am so sorry you went through that.
I don't know what to say....I am lost for words about how that makes me feel. But 1 comes to mind and that is anger.
can you try and distract your mind with something else. Maybe a puzzle or perhaps for now we can just chat about general stuff. That's not to say I am being triggered or don't want to hear your stories because I definitely want to hear about whatever you want to share but I am concerned about your MH right now. We can always pick it up again later if you feel up to it. You tell me what will help you feel a little better honey.
love you too babe. 💕

My friend, I feel I am past the point of distraction but I will try. I am going to bake for d3 and her bf , he is vegan so it will take some concentration as I have never baked anything vegan, thankful exh2 was converting to veganism so I still have a lot of what I need in the pantry.

How is your day going @Lee82

That's sounds fantastic. That is a great distraction. What are you thinking of cooking? My brother has just converted to veganism. He reckons he feels 100 times better on that diet. Personally I don't know if I could give up meat and cheese. 2 of my fav things....lol

we are finally on a break. Boy this teaching is hard work....lol I struggle to get myself motivated and now I have to motivate 2 kids as well. Phew hard work....lol nah actually they haven't been too bad but it is only day 1 so we will see if it continues for 10 weeks.
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