rough time

I think so...for now. Just have those thoughts in my head but they are not strong.
@Former-Member

That is good that are not strong. How was the rest of your day my friend? Can't thank you enough for what you have done for us tonight. @Lee82 , I feel blessed that you and Izzy connected here

@Former-Member

No need to thank me hun. I am happy to be here for all of you. However I feel I may have said the wrong things to Bear. In your first message you mentioned that Bear is the younger self of Izzy. I think I made the mistake of talking about a couple things she may not have been referring to. I'm so sorry I am new to DID and I am trying to understand it better. I feel like I have said the wrong thing. I'm so sorry

I have gone back through your exchange with her to make sure she didn't upset you and found nothing wrong with what you where talking about. She is roughly 14, she is extremely intimate with exh2. Please don't think he is doing the wrong thing as he has had a long discussion with Izzy and her original psychologist and we are all good with it. Unfortunately we have been sexually active for a young age because of the abuse. He has drawn a line the sand where some of others are concerned as they are younger still, he also won't "play" the way Bear wants to. Please you has said nothing wrong tonight. In fact you have helped more than you will know. Thank you for trying to understand my illness @Lee82 💜💜

That's a relief...thank you Nikki you clearing that up for me.
how you feeling at the moment my friend? Do you think you need some rest? Please let me know if you want to go.
I think that if all involved are ok with being sexually active then it's ok. Sex is a very healthy part of life so I've been told. I have had a very big problem with it pretty much my whole life. My husband was my first (well consensually) and I haven't ever been able to enjoy it. We have been separated for 2 years and it hasn't been a part of my life since. I fear I will never experience what other people discribe as pretty unbelievable. I will never feel that passion or have any one in my life that will hold me and look after me and love me. It is something I struggle with a lot. I see how happy this makes others and I want that in my life but I fear I will never have it. To have someone be there for you because they love you sounds pretty amazing
@Former-Member

I worried that something I said has upset you @Lee82 If I have I am so sorry my friend. Let me know what I did or said that was wrong please.

No no you haven't said anything wrong. All is ok hun.
@Former-Member

Thank god for that, I never want to cause you any pain or distress. It hasn't always been the case for Izzy either.

I have just crawled into bed but I don't want to go just yet as I am not convinced that you are ok my friend

@Lee82

I am so glad you are in bed. Please don't worry about me. I will be ok. You need to take care of you right now. We can catch up again tomorrow. Nikki you are an amazing friend and I am so glad we got to meet. ❣️
@Former-Member

of course I am going to worry about you @Lee82 you are my friend. Please be gentle with yourself. You are amazing and valued my sweetness.

Well since I just dropped the phone on my face I will say goodnight. I will send you a hello later today. Sending you very huge Nikki hugs. 💖💜