rough time

Yep the DID thing.

I am Bear, the trouble maker Nikki told you about. Nikki freaked out/ panic attack shit that has never happened before. But I sure she will be back soon enough when Izzy is like this Nikki usually is in complete control. I find it high unusual that she has engaged you in conversation so much over the last day or so.

Me I am a real chatter box and happy to talk to you until you are sick of me. Izzy is not good, I have sent Sean home as I think it was too hard with him here but I am pretty sure we are still safe. We don't usually talk to people about Izzy's DID people usually fear mental illness so much they would rather end the friendships rather than to try an understand

I have read some of your exchanges and think you a beautiful soul @Lee82

@Lee82 Sorry if I am too much for you.

@Former-Member

Nice to meet you Bear. I'm so sorry to hear about Nikki. I hope she is ok.
Are you sure you are ok to be alone tonight? Nikki asked to him to come over to make sure you stay safe. Please let me know if you start to feel unsafe.
I am not afraid and I am not going anywhere.
thank you so much for your kind words Bear.
so let me ask you. How are you feeling at the moment?

Please don't apologise. You are not too much at all. It's nice to meet another alter. I feel very honoured that you all feel comfortable enough to talk with me.
@Former-Member

Frustrated I am really frustrated, someone has cleared out all the alcohol in this place and I was looking forward to a drink. Other than that, I am good, I would normally keep him around because it's always "fun" but I am not stupid. Something is seriously wrong for Izzy to have Nikki out and about and now Nikki has freaked out but I have no idea what is wrong. But as long as when I go to sleep I can not see the things that I usually see then I am good.

How are you @Lee82

@Former-Member

I think maybe not having any alcohol around is a good thing at the moment sweetie.
I hope it was nothing I said that sent Nikki away. I am pretty concerned.
what is it that helps you get some sleep? I know it's scary to fall asleep cause you never know what you might see. I feel like that almost every night and so don't get much sleep. Unfortunately we cannot control our subconscious. What we can try and control however is how we deal with it when we wake up.

@Lee82 , I know cause every time I am here Sean moves it/hides the alcohol. He obviously didn't trust me tonight because he took Izzy's wallet and car keys 😞

Pretty sure it's nothing you said as I read a few messages. Nikki is tough though so whatever freaked her out must be in her own head.

The "fun" usually helps me pass out quickly so I will just put on one of my favourite movies and hopefully that will work.

Are you sure this is not too much for you right now. From what I have read you are having a difficult weekend yourself. We don't deserve your kindness and friendship or your time.

@Former-Member

I'm so sorry honey. Sean only did it to protect you. He wants to make sure you are safe and so do I.
when you say fun... what do you mean? What movie you going to watch?
This is not too much for me. If it gets too much I will let you know. Promise.

No this weekend has not been a good weekend for me and so I am glad it is almost over.

Hmmm, I am blushing and giggling and a bit embarrassed. Fun you have with somebody else. 😉 I will probably watch a Harry Potter movie, it will probably be Half Blood Prince that is my favourite of the Potter series.

Are you feeling ok @Lee82

@Former-Member

Oh I see. Sorry I didn't mean to embarrass you Bear. I love Harry Potter too. Although it's been awhile since I've seen them. Have you read the books?
I am feeling pretty exhausted and really sick at the moment.