rough time

My psych is a bit awesome @outlander and can be my thinking, sensible head when my dark and twisty one starts taking over. I'm very lucky to have him around and to have had him around for as long as I have.

You helped by asking and by getting it. Thank you 💜

I get the need to hide when you can sometimes. Does hiding help with having too much thinking time? What's driving the thoughts (if you feel like sharing)?

Your psych sounds pretty good @CheerBear im not in therapy anymore though wouldve been nice to have a good psych.

Thats ok. Here if you ever need to talk 💕

Trying to put worries into words might be abit much tonight. Im abit like a shaken fizzy bottle. Things are contained for now but when the lid comes off it might be messy :face_with_rolling_eyes:

Totally understand how tricky it can be to talk sometimes @outlander. The fizzy bottle is one I can relate to well. I've been a fizzy bottle a bit and for me when the lid starts trying to burst off I start getting really agitated. I want to fight and almost go looking for a fight. It's a bit ugly, especially when fight is mixed with twisty and dark 😏

I'm glad to hear things are you are contained for now. It can take a lot of effort to contain it though. Mega hugs for you (here for you too when I can be and in spirit when I can't) ❤

Agitated dark and twist- that sounds about right 🤔
Im in that catagory atm but contained through hiding and staying away from people lol. Havent been feeling the best physically either with original symptoms from infection seeming to be coming back so its making me abit irritated in its own sense too esp the yukky heavy vomity feeling stomach.

Hugs are good thank you. Sending some to you in return 💞 @CheerBear


Have you got much on tomorrow?

Hi @Appleblossom 👋
How are you?

A lecture and a chat sounds good @Appleblossom 💐💐
Have you been going to choir and the zoo much?

I always have alot on the 😞
Abit sick of going to the drs and trying to clear up an infection that seems to be coming back again. Its a rare infection with not much info on it and im the first patient my gp has ever treated in the 10 yrs shes been a gp so am abit worried about it again since symptoms are coming back rather then staying away. 🤔🤔:face_with_rolling_eyes::face_with_rolling_eyes:

Mm im just trying my best to cope i gues. Hiding isnt ideal but its better than being destructive like my brain says to do.

I kinda hve to be monitored for now. Apparently most people with this sort of infection are either admitted to hospital straight away or end up there and we are trying to avoid that so i guess as much as the treatments have side effect and have to keep in touchwi the gp id rather do that then go to hospital.

Ive mostly just been watching tv shows and crochet but have been making alot of phone calls for appts rescheduling fitting others in etc. I still have 2 to call but going to give it day or 2 for now unless they ring back. Still have to do the usual kid/pop routines but in reduced form.


I hope choir and the zoo are good tomorrow. How often do you do each of those? How is ndis planning coming along? @Appleblossom