outlanderSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Sans911
I got my results back from the pap test and i need to be refferred to a specialist. My first one was abnormal, waited 6 months as i had an infection at the time so they wanted to redo it then for a more accurate reading, done it again at the 6 month mark and again abnormal so i had to repeat it again in 13 months. I had been putting it off for almost 2 yrs now and got it done the other week it is abnormal again and it has progressed further than the last too. That means ive had them adnormal for close to 3 yrs now. I asked what that meant and ahe said that i need to see a specialist for it and while im there they can get the other symptoms sorted out that are resembling both pcos and endometriosis however she said that she can no longer rule out if they are cancerous cells either and they will need to perform all that when an appointment becomes available. On top of that i am going to have to eventually say something to my mother but i cant and wont meantion the changes in cervical cells. I meantioned about a yr ago of the possibility of pcos so im hoping itll be ok from there.
My pop mh is deteriorating and is showing sure signs of dementia progressing and my mother and her bf witnessed it right in front of them today alot more than once while they were helping me today with the front which has me stressed even more now due to the surgury coming up which they only have to give 2 weeks notice for so anytime between now and June they could ring unexpectedly, these tests and also needing to speak to an exercise physiologist as well.
I got my results back from the pap test and i need to be refferred to a specialist. My first one was abnormal, waited 6 months as i had an infection at the time so they wanted to redo it then for a more accurate reading, done it again at the 6 month mark and again abnormal so i had to repeat it again in 13 months. I had been putting it off for almost 2 yrs now and got it done the other week it is abnormal again and it has progressed further than the last too. That means ive had them adnormal for close to 3 yrs now. I asked what that meant and ahe said that i need to see a specialist for it and while im there they can get the other symptoms sorted out that are resembling both pcos and endometriosis however she said that she can no longer rule out if they are cancerous cells either and they will need to perform all that when an appointment becomes available. On top of that i am going to have to eventually say something to my mother but i cant and wont meantion the changes in cervical cells. I meantioned about a yr ago of the possibility of pcos so im hoping itll be ok from there.
My pop mh is deteriorating and is showing sure signs of dementia progressing and my mother and her bf witnessed it right in front of them today alot more than once while they were helping me today with the front which has me stressed even more now due to the surgury coming up which they only have to give 2 weeks notice for so anytime between now and June they could ring unexpectedly, these tests and also needing to speak to an exercise physiologist as well.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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And to think i was starting to move forward and then this. It had been advised not to study until things get sorted out so there goes that for next yr at least.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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Thank you first of all for sharing; that took a lot of courage lil Sis @outlander. I suspected as much it was an abnormal pap. I'm not surprised your upset, scared and anxious.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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That was way to much it was wrong of me @Sans911
Im sorry i dont want to drag you down with me esp since your in a good headspace
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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You really have so much going on for a young woman. Don't beat yourself up that you didn't get tested for 2 years. I've put mine off for about 4 years. It's something so quick and relatively simple, yet most women dread having someone look 'down there'.
From lots of things you've told me, I've suspected you might have PCOS. It's not nice to have, but you can live with it. And your abnormal cells may only prove to be the hpv virus. These cells are precancerous, but can be treated.
On top of this is your teeth, and on top of that is a family member you are watching change into something he's not. But I'm glad your mother noticed. It's a huge burden for a young person, and more so with their own health issues as well. A discussion might need to be had in time to decide how best to care for your pop if he declines rapidly. Maybe your mother and bf will help a little extra.
You do so much for your family, but little is done for you my angel. Who cares about you and your needs sweetheart.
Focus on your health for now. Get back on top of things. The study will still be there. I know you were really keen about it, so use it as a focus to put one foot in front of the other @outlander. I'm with you sweet sister for the long haul. I'm never going to be far from you. And BTW, this is not too much, and you aren't dragging me down. There are tears, that is true, but they are tears for your hurt and pain, and I'm OK with that. There are tears for you because I care very deeply about you. That is how much you matter to me. I'll be OK. I feel very privileged and honoured to shed these tears because you trusted me with something very personal and very painful.
From lots of things you've told me, I've suspected you might have PCOS. It's not nice to have, but you can live with it. And your abnormal cells may only prove to be the hpv virus. These cells are precancerous, but can be treated.
On top of this is your teeth, and on top of that is a family member you are watching change into something he's not. But I'm glad your mother noticed. It's a huge burden for a young person, and more so with their own health issues as well. A discussion might need to be had in time to decide how best to care for your pop if he declines rapidly. Maybe your mother and bf will help a little extra.
You do so much for your family, but little is done for you my angel. Who cares about you and your needs sweetheart.
Focus on your health for now. Get back on top of things. The study will still be there. I know you were really keen about it, so use it as a focus to put one foot in front of the other @outlander. I'm with you sweet sister for the long haul. I'm never going to be far from you. And BTW, this is not too much, and you aren't dragging me down. There are tears, that is true, but they are tears for your hurt and pain, and I'm OK with that. There are tears for you because I care very deeply about you. That is how much you matter to me. I'll be OK. I feel very privileged and honoured to shed these tears because you trusted me with something very personal and very painful.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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I'll be around for quite a while longer lil Sis @outlander. Still getting organised for leaving tommorow morning. It's hard to do stuff tonight though as it's extremely humid and sticky. I might have a cool shower soon.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Aww sis looks like we are both in need of tissues tonight. Every part of me is hurting and is tired.
They suspected pcos or endo for a while but because nothing abnormal showed up on the bloods they didnt do further tests and this has been going on for close to 2 yrs now too. They listened to me thr first time and they done the works in the bloods including pregnancy testing after that they put it down to stress.
In april will be the anniversary of nans passing, she had cervical cancer. That is another reason i am so scared and nervous. I dont want to have to put anyone through what was wittnessed with her treatments. Even though those abnormal cells can be treated if those treatments need to be done in a hospital setting i will need to tell mum. The specialist is in a hospital but normal scheduled appointments.
After xmas ill be taking pop to the drs ad speaking to his gp about my aged care and getting him assessed. I cant keep doing it all on my own and now with mum starting in a new job in the new yr i will have even less help and probably more responsibilities with the kids some days.
The kids are doing well and are moving forward as most kids would so it makes it worth it.
And yes and then there's my teeth 😞 i want them to hurry up and get them out but i am shite scared of what might happen there too esp since i have really bad reflux that ia barely controlles even with medications..
Thank you for being here with and for me @Sans911 it means the world to me. My love for you is real even though we are on separate sides of the country and havent met yet. My hopes are one day that will be possible.
Edited- sorry so.many errors in the post
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Thank you as well @Appleblossom xo
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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It was 33 here today but thunderstorms so was very humid here too. Thankfully its cooler tonight and tomorrow is rainy and alot cooler.
I dont think ill be sleeping much again tonight either. Nothing new there though.
I dont think ill be sleeping much again tonight either. Nothing new there though.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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So you have the added factor of family cancer. If it wasn't bad enough hey?
Does anyone have guardianship or power of attorney over your pop. I hope it's not you, as you are far to young to shoulder such massive responsibility. Is your pop your mother's father or your father's father?
I know you're a very giving and caring person lil Sis, but there has to be balance to @outlander. Time for you to work, study, have a life!
Lots of things right now for you to worry about, but at the same time they have to unfold on their time and doing. You worrying isn't going to make them come any quicker. For now, all you can do is try to focus on a good diet, which you do, but make it really healthy. Practice self care whenever you can, even if it's five mins for a cuppa or some grounding exercise. Go outside and feel the grass beneath your feet. Connect with nature and feel the energy of it. Do things that soothe you. And talk to me OK? Anytime. Even if I'm not immediately available I often go back and read your threads. Because I'm interested in what's happening. I want you feel OK to share. Don't shoulder all these things alone sweetie. Hugs and hugs
Does anyone have guardianship or power of attorney over your pop. I hope it's not you, as you are far to young to shoulder such massive responsibility. Is your pop your mother's father or your father's father?
I know you're a very giving and caring person lil Sis, but there has to be balance to @outlander. Time for you to work, study, have a life!
Lots of things right now for you to worry about, but at the same time they have to unfold on their time and doing. You worrying isn't going to make them come any quicker. For now, all you can do is try to focus on a good diet, which you do, but make it really healthy. Practice self care whenever you can, even if it's five mins for a cuppa or some grounding exercise. Go outside and feel the grass beneath your feet. Connect with nature and feel the energy of it. Do things that soothe you. And talk to me OK? Anytime. Even if I'm not immediately available I often go back and read your threads. Because I'm interested in what's happening. I want you feel OK to share. Don't shoulder all these things alone sweetie. Hugs and hugs
