rough time

I’m raving on to myself 😂😂

I thought you might still be on here, but

thats ok, I hope you’re having a good sleep.

Nighty night. @outlander

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No need to be sorry @outlander

I understand that you were asleep and sometimes it’s not easy to answer even when awake. Whenever is fine. 💜

Sorry you have such a long wait until surgery. Teeth, gum etc pain is the worst. 😳😩😢

I have tried many many meds and they all give me unbearable side affects. I couldn’t bring myself to try another. It took ages for me to try this one, because of past experiences with awful side affects, often lasting two months for each med trial. It’s not worth it. I often end up bed ridden, hoping the med will work. But they make me much worse.

Bummer I have to try and cope without anything.

Having coffee in bed at the moment, not wanting to face the day again.

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Hi @Teej

thank you for responding last night, I read it at ungodly hrs and nothing was really sinking in more just blurry lines on a screen. And thank you for taking the time to talk to me as well, I do appreciate you

Ah yes I get what you mean now with headspace or any other helpline. I always feel like im wasting it unless im in crisis (and by then I generally dont use them anyway). There are so many people young and older who need it more than I. I do find though that talking about whatever it might be at the time that is setting me off stops abit of that build up and that big explosion unless like you I go from 0-100 too quickly. The 0-100 is happening really quickly and even my psych noticed it yesterday and thats while im on medications so im glad they allowed me to increase a few weeks ago, the anti-depressents I havent started yet as I need to speak to my gp about them first.

Thats happened a few times to me too where the subject gets changed or the question or worry is ignored by the professionals.

I know that I am alike many people here esp with the BPD side of thing so its really helpful for me to talk to others who do experience these sorts of things too. Can I ask you how you keep yourself relatively stable even for a few days? I seem to go through these 'phases' where im really just going bonkers (even more than usual 😒) like now but then I can be ok and start to think im moving forward for a few days and be able to think better and implement things just a little easier. The trouble im having though which maybe you can relate with is I dont actually know what causes the over the top bonkers phase. Its like a switch has been flicked over.

Sorry, I meant packing up and leaving from home. Have you ever wanted to do that even when younger? (or anyone that is reading is welcome to add to this) Somewhere I can breathe and almost re-create myself I suppose... But without what is happening now and unfortunatly that includes the mh side of things I dont know who 'me' is. Without the responsibilities, without the pain and fear, without the mental health, without the traumas who is 'Outlander'.

Yes boundaries, we can both suck at that together then! Sometimes I think some boundaries should be a common sense thing but not for some people or those who are use to invading that space I guess..

I meant packing up and leaving from home. Have you ever wanted to do that even when younger? --- @outlander, you are not alone my sister , I think nearly everyone in the world has thought that or have done that in their lives

sometimes mr shaz wants to do something different

I couldn’t get through life without a sense of humour, that’s for sure @outlander

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Hey @outlander . I’ll try to reply to your post again soon. Today I needed some time to get out of my head a bit. On my walk I was thinking about your posts but haven’t had the capacity to write like I did yesterday yet. I have a busy day tomorrow so I’m not sure what my forum capacity will be. I hope you are ok and have things to fill your days too. 💜🤗