Hi @thunderclap and welcome to the forum.
Looks like you might have had a bit of a tricky start to posting here. I think it's really awesome that you tried again and made a version 2 post.
Your psych appointment is still a little while away. I know for me that days can seem like weeks when I am struggling, so weeks can feel like forever.
Do you have any hobbies or interests that you enjoy doing to pass the time?
I also understand how it can feel hard to stay safe when you're having a particularly hard time. Sometimes I find it helpful to distract myself by chatting about other things. There's a section of the forum called "Social spaces" where you'll find lots of conversations about different topics happening that can provide great distractions if you'd like to join in.
There's also a section called "Looking after our wellbeing" thay may be helpful in terms of ideas to stay safe if you're interested. Threads like
The coping box and this one
here about coping strategies might be useful to check out.
It can also help me to read and share stories from people who have had similar experiences especially when people in my off-forum life don't seem to get it or understand. You can use the search bar to find topics that you might be interested in, or if you want to share a bit more here about what's happening for you at the moment maybe we can try to link you in with some other members who may be able to relate to what you're going through.
One tip is that if you'd like to reply to someone you can use the @ symbol in front of their name and they will be tagged.
Hope you find the forums helpful.