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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Ok @Faith-and-Hope i see the doc today.

Im getting really nervous about the court date now.
Im really stressing about it now. Like i cant stop thinking about it. I cant stop my head from spinning

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Do you have someone to go with you now @Bubbles3 ?

A DID diagnosis would likely help you with the court business too, if not for the first hearing, then ongoing. If you can get an urgent appointment with a DID counsellor, they may be able to give you a report that helps too ......

Can you print off DID info to take to your doctor with you ? They may not have heard of this either.

The thing that makes me suspect you may have it is the fact that you can see Mark, Kelly and Lea in your mind ..... what they look like, what their ideas, tastes and interests are like, and they have their own names too. That is not “just” voices in your head. You seem to have complete identities in there with you, like sharing your body and mind with these others.

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Im not sure if anyone is coming with me yet @Faith-and-Hope. Im here now ill ask her when i go in. She need to do up a report ready anyway. I cant stop shaking.

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Iv tried calling up places people that help with MH issues to come to court with me but im still waiting to hear back @Faith-and-Hope

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Im so scared about going @Faith-and-Hope

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I know @Bubbles3 .... but try to lean in to your fear anyway, and reach deep for courage to do what you have to do .....

We are walking with you.

💜

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@Bubbles3 @Faith-and-Hope

I am here with you both, because I understand & do not judge. I have you in prayer Bubbles, I have been praying for you since we made friends. I had no idea the challenges you are living with then.
Now I realize why GOD brought us together, actually the 3 of us, as you need a earthly Angel on each side of you, & The HOLY SPIRIT behind you & GOD in control! Amen & Amen!

YOU ARE A WINNER Bubbles3!

Love & Hugs!

Bella! XO 🙂

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thanks @Former-Member very sweet of you

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@Bubbles3 @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom @Zoe7

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it doesnt matter what i try to do, its never fking good enough.

iv had enough of this sh*t
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