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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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@Bubbles3
So with 3 individual personalities that have their own voices, & there own persona, right Bubbles?
Would you say that on occasion, you take on these personalities?
Has your therapist, or Psych Doc, ever suggested that you could have multiple personality Disorder?
Just wondering, as if so that could be at the bottom of why you are having so much problem coping & getting along with those that you tell us about? but if I am wrong please disregard this message, ok sweetheart?
Love You !

Bella XO 🙂

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Have you asked your counsellor a about DID @Bubbles3 ?

Tell Mark that you will only listen to him if he is nice to you Hon ...., that everybody has to work together.

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Whats DID @Faith-and-Hope

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DID is Disossiative Identity Disorder @Bubbles3 ..... it is when you live with more than one of you inside your head, and the other “people” in there have their own, separate identity, and they want time of their own to live life the way they want to with the shared body.

https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/dissociative-identity-disorder-multiple-personality-disorder#1

If this sounds very familiar to you, a psych specialising in DID can help you to work things out. It means that the different personalities within you need to learn to co-operate with each other instead of competing and bullying to try to get attention or control.

As the website says, not all specialists believe in this, so maybe your go can refer you to someone who specialises in it ?

See what you can learn about it anyway @Bubbles3 ..... it may help you to understand better what is going on for you, and that you are not alone.

There are others on the forums here who have DID. I won’t try to name them .... often they can be very private or shy ..... and they will make themselves known to you if they feel comfortable to, but there are also DID threads, so maybe just drop a “hello” into one of them and see who answers you.

DID is probably the most amazing coping function of the human body. If this is what you are experiencing, rather than it being “crazy” or “weird”, it is actually a highly developed state of managing extreme trauma.

You are not alone @Bubbles3 ......

💜

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Its funny you say that @Faith-and-Hope
Someone once told me they thought i had that. Ill read more about it. Thanks for that

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Even if it is not what you are experiencing @Bubbles3, it can help to understand that “normal” isn’t the same for everybody ..... there are many different states of normal, and that’s okay.

I hope it’s helpful for you Hon.

💜

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Thankyou @Faith-and-Hope

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🤗💕 @Bubbles3 .......

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Just read about it @Faith-and-Hope and it does sound like me

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If your therapist hasn’t suggested it to you @Bubbles3, they may be someone who doesn’t believe in it. Can you ask your go to refer you to someone who does ...... maybe find them first yourself and check with them whether you need a go referral or not.

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