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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Hi @Bubbles3,
I’m so sorry to hear you were abused last night by your husband. I can imagine that must be making you feel pretty down.
Do you feel unsafe @bubbles?
Do you have a community health centre nearby ? Maybe there might be a social worker or family support worker that you could talk to? Maybe you already have these people involved but if not Bubbles , you could do with someone on your side.
Thinking of you Bubbles, keeping asking for help❤️

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I agree with @Catcakes ..... it sounds like hubby needs support to be able to support you @Bubbles3. I know he has said no to that before, but it sounds like he’s not coping so well.

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@Bubbles3 that is is not good,

I agree with @Catcakes & @Faith-and-Hope, it sounds like hubby is not coping and needs some support to understand and support you. He needs to work that out himself though, I always rejected any notion that I neded help.

I am not in any way making excuses for him treating you badly, that is never ok, I just know from my experience trying to support my darling without any outside input it does not work. I am sure I often reacted badly when my darling has been in a hole and I have had super crappy days/ weeks at work and came home to ... and not been able to help my darling .. hard to describe the emotions that go with that.

That does not help you though when you are struggling the way you are.

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I hope things are a kittle calmer for you when he gets home tonight @Bubbles3

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Ohhhhh @Bubbles3 that is is not good,

I agree with @Catcakes & @Faith-and-Hope and @Determined , it sounds like hubby is not coping and needs some support to understand and support you.

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I want to die I

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I am so sorry to hear that @Bubbles3

I would so much like to help but dont know what to say...
Please know that I care, and I can see and feel your pain, my darling is in a similar place to you at the moment, for very diferent reasons but the pain is the same.

Please try an remember that even though it may be hard to see at the moment there are people who care about you and love you, ...

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Hi @Bubbles3
What’s happening Lovely?
I know that last couple of days have been rough. ❤️
I’ll just let the @Former-Member know
To help you as well Bubbles because we care about you very much and want you to stay safe

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Hi @Bubbles3, @Determined and @Catcakes

It sounds like it's been a hard day @Bubbles3. What is happening for you at the moment?

Thanks for the shout out @Catcakes

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@Former-Member@Catcakes@Determined@Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope

I just dont want to be here. I do want to die

I cant do this anymore

My hubby will be soon and again i will have to listenn to his shit

And i cant

Its to much for me

I cant handle any more abuse

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