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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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mark is going to k*ll me. he hate me so much right now. i know know why. i havent done anything wrng

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Calm yourself if you can @Bubbles3 ...... he may be there with you but you are still in charge, right ?

I am glad you are reaching out for help, and please keep talking, but maybe not with his threatening words ....... choose your own words and make them ones that support you ...... like saying you are not going to listen to his threats and put some music on ?

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hubby will be home soon and that will make things worse. i hate mark. i really hate him. he destrys my life

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If it is DID and you get to work with a therapist who understands @Bubbles3, they will work with you to try to put boundaries on how mark affects you.

I am not an expert ..... far from it. I only know a little bit about it from trying to work out our own situation. But there are others who live with their own version of mark, and there is information and other people experiences to help you.

💙

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hopefully the meds start to wrk to wrk soon then hopfully he will be gone

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Hi Bubbles3,

I wanted to check that you are safe, as you mentioned Mark and him wanting to kill you, thats something that we do take really seriously. I will send you an email in a minute, as it would be great to check in around this.

Cheers,

Newdawn

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his not going @Faith-and-Hope

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Where is Kelly @Bubbles3 - is she around?

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@Bubbles3

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no shes not , she is hiding coz of mark @Zoe7
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