Having a really hard time

A couple of different wind chimes. They have them in a big children play area. It has the biggest enclosed slippery dip youve ever seen. Also a roadway for bikes and scooters. An area with sand and water cannons. Huge grassed area for ball games. The usual swings including a swing for special needs children. It so big we only go if theres two of us to fhe two girls. Cause they always go in oposite directions dont they!

How are you feeling now jay?

The girls are six and eight. Unfortunately parent are separated and its a bit messy. It has to go to family court in the new year.

However we try to give them a positive experience when they visit,

They like to paint my face, put makeup on me. Make me pregnant with lots of babies stuck up my dress. Craft,cooking. They like to help to make dinner. Its a full on day. And theres always board games to play.

It makes for good memories. It can be very challenging at times when i just want to be by myself. I sometimes have to withdraw for an hour or so to my bedroom and lock the door. Im always exhusted the next day.

I have often thought how it would be good if there was a drop in centre that ran throughghe night. I think alot of people struggle at night. I know i do at times. I dont want hospital. I just want somewhere that was safe to go and just be. Talk if i want to.I have been putting serious thought into starting one up. But theres alot to consider, and i want to do it right. Sometimes i feel it really possible, then i think it's just way too big. I certainly couldnt do it alone. I guess time will tell. Theres Lot to consider.

So jay. Do you have any plans for tommorow?

I am hoping to go to the local indoor pool and get a year pass to start swimming on a regular basis. I know it helps me. I find the water very soothing. It just seems like so many other things have cropped up lately.

So new year swimming is my goal

Your sounding a little bit more relaxed.

I hope this has helped you get through fhe night.