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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope,
my appointments are 4 weeks apart, too long that was my second discosure, the first one I ended up in hospital because I could handle it, I don't want to go there again. Lack of Pysch here only one in 280 kilometres radious, rural nsw.. I'm safe for now but I'm impulsive and I don't know.
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Hi @Tigga321 - I just went back and read some of your posts. I have felt like you are now- I also suffered horrific childhood abuse and approx 5 years ago suffered a mental breakdown where I did not leave the house for a couple of years. The problem with the latter is that it feed the bad memories and depressive thoughts making me worse, so eventually with baby steps I ventured back out into the world again as part of my attempt at healing and it helped. My life is not rosy now but better (I am 57 in March). Hold onto hope. So sorry to read of your struggle - I just want you to know that you are not alone in it. Sending a warm hug your way xx
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello @Former-Member,
Im 62 tomorrow, my children don't care because I couldn't protect them properly from their dad, oh I suffered at the hands of my elder brother, parents and husband, so I tried to give them a safe life, but I couldn't, I failed them..They saw how weak I was with their dad, they lost respect for me.. I have no family I have me and I'm always inside my head.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Former-Member, If my children don't ring me tomorrow, it will break me beyond repair, they never msg or rang at Christmas or new year, tomorrow will shatter me so much..
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Shaz51 It's okay I should have stayed away.. I'm sorry I might cause you worry, with my thoughts...I'm fine...Tomorrow will be here to soon for me..
Take care of yourselves. Please..
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Take care of you my friend @Tigga321
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I do understand that grief @Tigga321. I am estranged to three of my children. Apart from my husband - I have no family. No one. Being stuck inside our heads when distressed is not a good place. Please let me wish you a very happy birthday for tomorrow - remember we care. We get you.
Whatever mistakes we made in the past is in the past - we can only do our best at the time and in the now. I know this is difficult but please try and do something nice for you tomorrow for your birthday. Maybe put on some music you enjoy and dance around the house. Eat some chocolate and have a drink you enjoy. Beats being depressed. What have we to lose? I will dance with you in spirit. Yes, the last thing you will feel like doing but it's doing the opposite to how we feel and what our minds dictate that will see a better tomorrow. The past is gone, it's now about healing and making the most of life.
Keep in touch @Tigga321 - you are not alone. Keep posting tomorrow - we will get through this. 🌹xx
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