@AlwaysMyself Yes a lot of people struggle to understand this.
@ENKELI @AuntGlow @Realness @heartathome @Appleblossom
i will try and explain The evil voices are realities NOT people but what my fears made of seeing sheets moving the draft in the place i slept at the time. A big open space my mum used to hang the washing up if it rained outside (i come from the Nederlands, so a lot of those times sheet hang on the second floor all winter basically.)
Our house had a very COLD heartless aura at the time. For mum and dad were always fighting. As my dad had been brought up by a tyrant and thought that is how we ought to go to but mum did not like it.
i pick up such aura straight away having been given the ability to discern spirits/spirituality, i thin all schizophrenic people do.
Anyhow for a very long time a FREAKED THOSE EVIL SPIRITS which was mainly in much darkness and my childish mind changed to real realities. (which they are but not like that)
So evil voices talk all day and are NOT self talk or say things you think of yourself, but they might spring your greatest fear on you when you get a fright or unguarded moment. My whole experience had to so with my inability to get away from my fears and suppressing them for i had to have faith. My psychologist is sure that is how it would have gone. I'm observing, i was not sure but it does sound pretty accurate to how it is.
So if someone says something nasty you get thoughts and feelings triggered by that right? Now i have that as well. All healthy peole do. But i also heard negative/evil talk 24/7 no matter what. at peace or not those voices always stayed doing their thing.
Only later on in life did the voice appear with faces of those supposed saying this or not.
So it are NOT emotions firing my thoughts and feeling wildly, that only comes afterwards, but badly gone wrong evil sensations of harm done to me as well as suffering harm laying their trying not to feel scared of those sheets and the big unsafe place.
In the end when peolpe talked to me, i ALWAYS saw evil spirits laughingly announce the trigger coming, or the evil they love to see happen to them, and then have my loved one loose it big time the evil i put in them psychotically trying to warn them about it all these years ago ALWAYS DRIVING US APART! The voices never participated with when emotional, neither angry or loving, but were always in opposition and making my every thought observation hurt them. (just thinking about and i begin to cry again.)
More trauma, more evil, that is how those voice grew into the monsters they became in my head. For as you know i have a paranoid alter and the spirits used to freak me so badly i could faint the fears, although i never wet myself, for then i would have to go down stairs and i be in trouble a kid. So i learned to pee and poo (peeing i could upstairs in a potty but usually i was far to scared to get out of bed) all before going to bed.
THE VOICES ARE STILL GONE HAD NONE SINCE JESUS FREED ME.
i hope this makes sense some sense now.
