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@heartathome Thanks caring and praying. i'm safe! Jesus will never let me go, and i know soon i will never let Him go again.

Yes i love Music. Though for the last 21 years i mainly listen to Sons of Korah and Sherri Youngward. However my brother was a DJ when i was a teenager, and he got me into ALL KIND of music big time then already. Also our down syndrome daughter loves music and really appreciates me finding new songs for her. The last few years i have been catching up on my music again.

i love songs with meaning or a good story line.

You know this one? A favourite of both my wife and me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz81dIfwf4Y&list=RDsz81dIfwf4Y&start_radio=1

I just read how you are @DownMoreThanUp

I'm thinking of and praying for you

Please take good care of yourself! Talk soon 💜

Hi @DownMoreThanUp ,

Thanks for sharing how difficult your days are at the moment. You mentioned a week or so ago that you have back up meds - when will it be time to use them?

I'm so glad you got that six hour sleep. And that even at your most depressed you find Jesus there. It's true. In scripture not only is He our Creator but He has been to the deepest depths and the highest Heaven.

You're in my thoughts and prayers at this time.

No, I've never heard the song before @DownMoreThanUp It's a long song but it's good how she talks/ sings about God's people in the Bible. This was the next song that came on. 💜

https://youtu.be/9OmYhgvwQa8?list=RDsz81dIfwf4Y

@Realness The challenge will be not to have to use them! Yet i know i may if i need to, or want to use them. It be great not to be hamstrung any longer by meds that are hard to get by.

That is my ultimate goal!

Not sure if or when i make that. Yet i want learn not to make any decisions that tie me in any form to me not to, or have to, use something to cope or enjoy life. i want to be free to always have maximum benefit both ways.😁

Love this song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KDPW_g2AhAU&list=RDKDPW_g2AhAU&start_radio=1

@heartathome Yes i love that one too!👍 (Comforting song that one!)

You know these ones? (They are my current prayer of heart) Sorry no lyrics but she sings it very clearly.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nvo483WyTv0&list=PLEcdgAgGvJCM-7rV6EIdM8FVt2m6j1hCd&index=3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dANe3NgQxIM&list=PLEcdgAgGvJCM-7rV6EIdM8FVt2m6j1hCd&index=3

Listening to it at the moment @DownMoreThanUp

You're right. She does have a clear voice! Thank you so much for trying to find lyrics for me. I did like the video as well. In one part the picture of paddocks is a brownish green colour and turns slowly into bright, luscious green grass and paddocks. It reminded me of what I imagine it be like in Heaven. The colours. 💜

Hi @heartathome ,

Hope you are enjoying your quiet day at home.

A good marriage is a miracle I think. I'm glad you witnessed one with your parents.

I can't remember quite when the anger began in that relationship but I think it was when he said he thought that I would be in the high pressured high paying job while he stayed at home writing! Apart from it being totally unrealistic my Dad had worked seven days a week (too much I know!) to provide for his family and I expected the man to work and bring in most of the money. I think the work world is a man's world. I ended things shortly after that.

I especially overloaded friendships before I was a Christian. I think I mean getting my value as a person from that person. It puts too much pressure on the relationship. When I found God I then increasingly got my value as a person from God. I remember that when I use to give gifts I was sort of giving people a debt - I expected a gift in return. After I became a Christian I stopped doing that also.

I just remembered that when from about the age of sixteen to when I found the New Testament I was looking for a reason to be good which wouldn't let me down. People are not a a good enough reason. No wonder I was overloading relationships before I was a Christian.

Thanks for your encouragement. I feel like I have found a friend in you. And you're right, having time for these Forums is a good thing.

@heartathome Awesome

@Realness @Appleblossom @MissGremlin @Ru-bee @ENKELI

i wanted to share a poem i write Down Deep. My first ONE down there!

Falling Upside Down.

Tears flowing

tumbling i go

seeing myself fall

down, down, down....

Burning agony

heart piercing pain

bringing darkness

darkness, darkness, darkness......

Sadness overwhelms

all collapsing within

feelings a black hole

pressing, pressing, pressing....

Isolation hems me in

[Linited Detailed Descriptions - edited by moderator] of everything

wishing but one thing

death, death, death.........

Jesus!😭

Jesus!😭

Jesus!😭

Meeting YOU here? 😍

Dear mods could you please explain blocking my image in my previous post? i find that hard to believe you would have done that?

@Ru-bee @tyme