@heartathome @Realness i was snooping on your conversation together, i hope you do not mind.
@heartathome i used to feel just like you reading the Bible. It would always convict me, and demand i do more things for god before he be happy with me. Some parts of The bible i literally hated to read because of that.
However when Jesus was revealed in His love over me! And i knew once and for all that God only ever loves, and that the whole Bible is a love letter to the captives, and those mourning, or hurting, life down here. No matter how sinful you have become!
So after that The Spirit taught me to read the Word only in The Spirit of love - and only to my own inner world of being. Reading The Word in Love for God, myself, and for others like He loves me. Unbelievable what a change reading the bible after that.
As a matter of fact any forceful feelings or thoughts demanding we do this or that ends up being banned in our life. Replaced by the loving self control we inherit in The Spirit, after we have dropped ourselves in our weaknesses at His feet. (The Seven overcomings signify this.)
So if you feel bad for what you have done or should have done The bible ALIVE inside is the answer you are seeking. For in Him we can do anything but without Him we can do nothing.
You know when you are reading The word in The Holy Spirit, for then God bcomes your darling ABBA/Daddy to you, while reading the Bible with a guilty conscience, makes god a fearful dragon, accusing us of wrong, slamming laws and regulations down on us, and demanding we fix ourselves, or else! As if Jesus has NOT paid the price, we still have to pay!
So do be of good courage dear sister. For the Holy Spirit will only ever convict us of sin or wrong. He never accuse us or make us feel bad! Rather He lovingly take us by the hand and brings us to Jesus. Where The Blood washes us clean time and again. Such is Supping/Dining with Jesus all about as you already know at other times in your heart.
So if you feel accused about ANYTHING it is ALWAYS satan playing god but never our Heavenly Father or our Lord Jesus Christ. It does mean you need to catch up with Jesus to cleanse you of a guilty conscience.
When we love Jesus for forgiveness we stop sinning in The end voluntarily, for love does not want to harm, hurt or do wrong, i found, but when we fear God because we sinned, our sin always keeps on going, or we replace one sin with another, no matter how hard we try to stop that.
i hope this will help you reading The bible. That sure has happened in my life. It is the book i read basically soley, and have read for the last 21 years. (Apart of 2 novels by Francis Rivers. 'Sin eater' and 'Redeeming Love' no other books interest me any longer. 🤣) Nothing beats having The word speak to us from within through those pages in front of us i reckon.
Those Who Mourn Him. (Revelation 1:1-8)
When bad life wrings our hurting soul, (Revelation 9:3-19)
such must bite the dust prepared for all, (Revelation 19:11-21)
who had us think a lie does us little harm, (Revelation 20:11-15)
us unaware all wrong will our bad life farm. (Revelation 17:6)
For the painful lesson all believers learn, (Revelation 9)
is that doing wrong will us bad life earn. (Revelation 2:20-23)
Where only through God's grace, we may, (Revelation 7:1-8)
love all that accumulated bad life away. (Revelation 7:9-17)
Where suffering for good brings on the flood, (Revelation 12:13-17)
our life in wrong flowing the river of His blood, (Revelation 14:14-20)
For only then we know that on Christ's great Day, (Revelation 6:17)
we will celebrate God's grace and love for aye. (Revelation 21:1-7)
SHUT UPPA YOUR FACE!!!
Once The Accuser dies fear turns to dedicated love.
Any finger pointing at you hasn't got a clue!