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@heartathome Sorry the support button does not work but i press it ten thousand times if it did. Thanks praying, thanks comforting. All of this is so very long overdue.

My hope in my faith and love for God, myself and others is, that when i die to the BAD LIFE keeping God's love away willingly, as He did for me HIS GOOD LIFE, Jesus will be finally be fully formed in me.

One can always hope can they. (i say while the devil scorns and mocks me myself in him😎. (i can sure see the Beast and that The Great Harlot Babylon called religion on his back tormenting me even now their evil. - Revelation chapter 17 & 18))

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HS3pUgRKh_g&list=RDHS3pUgRKh_g&start_radio=1

@heartathome Thanks. i had a lot more to say but it seems i'm not allowed. DENIED HERE AS WELL.

@tyme @ENKELI @REDLINEZ750 @Blackcloud

Sorry i'm going not coming back this palce makes me RAGE as well.

Are you there @DownMoreThanUp I read your last post, but it has disappeared! I can't remember what you said but listened to the song. I loved it. He too has got a lot of questions to ask God when we get to Heaven! Did you take the post down? I'm not even sure if you can do that. I reported it as a technical issue.

Take time out @DownMoreThanUp ! I don't want you to say or do something you'll regret later on. It could have been something to do with IT and not from the moderators. I'd email and ask them why when you've cooled down a bit.

Is there something that helps you calm down? What about a cold/ cool shower while you sit/ stand and scream or maybe go for a walk. Usually under rage is hurt. Be gentle with yourself! I hope you'll be back! 💛

@heartathome Sorry sis i got overcome for a bit. Been a bit hot here

wrote a poem about it using the awesome song of White Stripes 'Seven headed nation', i changed the wording just a little for the purpose of the exercise.😁

see whatt you think. Not sure if i can handle talking much. Feeling very vulnerable. Luckily the moderators came to the rescue. Helping me a lot.

That's alright. I'm glad to see you back. I couldn't listen to all the song @DownMoreThanUp It's a bit 'loud' for me and I couldn't hear the words properly. To be honest I don't usually listen to the songs unless they have lyrics. I don't remember the words as such but pick up on feelings. Your poem sounds like you're fighting and you're very determined! I'm glad you're able to write poetry to process things. The last verse concerned me a little bit, and I wondered if you have SI. I may be misunderstanding.

@ENKELI Praying for you and your friend and family.

@REDLINEZ750 Thank you for your heartfelt post. I still dont remember reading anything upsetting from you. SO please dont worry.

I am beside myself a lot of the time in worry for my son. Very heightened, anxious, trying to do the right things, but life is a challenge.

Thank you all for being friends.

@heartathome @tyme

Oh. You are a beautiful, caring and loving soul @Appleblossom and I'm very appreciative to be called your friend! 💛

Is your son okay at the moment? I can totally understand the intense feelings regarding your son. You're a wonderful mum, don't forget that!

Since my son is out of my control, all I can do is keep handing him over to God. I did put a few boundaries up with him (because of his drug and alcohol misuse) but I know you can't do that with your son! That's not his story!

Thinking of and praying for you and your son! 🙏 💛

@heartathome Thanks for caring enough to reply as you did. If you are interested knowing the lyrics they are under the video when you press more on the description.

i could not really write poetry yesterday, that is why i borrow the lyrics of that song in the first place, for most of the content lent itself perfectly for where i was at the time.

No i do not suffer from SI, neither suicidal ideation or self injury, rather i'm refering to the crucifixion of myself in my carnal self.

if you look at the original song you will see what i mean, i could not use those words here at SANE that is why i altered them to say what they did for me.

Maybe ponder feeling and seeing red............AT YOUR INNER TORMENTORS...... the ones you declared straight in their faces you are going to fight to death.

i hope this makes some sense.

Still not in a good space myself. i keep being overcome by exhaustion and nausea. i have a hospital consolation halfway February about the nausea. After that still the procedure to stick a camera in my stomach. So who knows how long i have to struggle with feeling as sick as a dog, always triggering depression, racing thoughts and an even worse struggle with insomnia waking up feeling so sick.

Thanks for praying sis. That is greatest.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJis2skju7g&list=RDGJis2skju7g&start_radio=1