Christian Chat

Hey @ENKELI @avant-garde reading through here I can see that there's been a bit of miscommunication which I think has been mostly down to the difficulties in communicating only over text - it can be so easy to misinterpret, or to read posts in a tone which was not intended by the writer.

@ENKELI I'm glad that you're able to take a step away, it's important to look after yourself in these situations. Take all the time you need, we're here when you're ready 💜

When you're both feeling up to it I might offer for you each to try re-reading these posts, but focusing on reading them in a kind, caring tone and seeing if that changes what you take away from the words there.

@Ru-bee I appreciate what you have suggested but I was very mindful of how I responded as I am well aware of how some people react to my messages.

I have read and re-read my post, I got my brother and my friend to read my post and they didn't see anything wrong with it.

I can't be on a forum and be treated this way as it brings back severe emotional memories.

I am safe but I feel like doing something unsafe because of all this.

I hear you @ENKELI I'm not suggesting that there was anything wrong with the way your post was worded, rather that our own perceptions, experiences, mood, trauma etc can impact the way we take in information. And this can be even more amplified when we don't have other things like tone of voice, body language, or facial expressions to go along with the words we're taking in.

I hear that has touched on difficult emotions for you - Are you needing any additional support at the moment?

Hi @ENKELI I’m sorry to hear that you’re thinking about doing something unsafe. I wonder if you’re able to ground yourself in the moment and take some deeeeep deeeep breaths for the moment to keep yourself in the present moment? ❤️

I’m here for you my friend. 🌟

You might have already gotten off @Appleblossom.

I just wanted to say that's what I like about Thomas in the Bible and what he said to Jesus - I believe, help my unbelief. It's my prayer!

I trust God but I don't trust authority! I talked to @Jynx about authority last night!

I think it's a miracle that you are able to have any kind of relationship with God!

Please be gentle on yourself Appleblossom! 💛

@Appleblossom i hope your still there, i dont want you to think im not mutual if you have a different belief than me.

i think your awesome and super intelligent,

people get threatened by intelligence

AI kept telling me that nuance word i asked what is it think i googled it first still none the wiser.

it comes back with " your struggle to relate to its meaning is nuanced' something like it.

think i picked a fight with it after that.

i overthinked i had said something unbecoming in a post and caused you misery last night and was cowardly when saw @Appleblossom MEntioned you in post i i actually wanted to close lap top put my head in hands and start making loud repetitive noises while rocking back n forth.

but said to self, self i want to know if i have so dont do it again its @Appleblossom you dickhead if she take the time to set you straight then we are good .

learn from it, be sincere, stay on track keep it short. that was limit of my capacity so when i saw this post i felt like the worcestishire cat then kept reading and r i got to keep it short please know i have a reason to believe in my faith thats tangible yet i know if it wasnt id still think the church and its lies and the barbaric treatment of other humans was a f433n joke. just on lived experience so yeah i know ill never hear your story for it being too much for some thats one thing i wonder could work for forums

they say in group theres time out rooms, it would be cool if users could request to break away from the main forum to release weight carried with select others they feel could take it while still knowing personal and private and of course anoninmissness rules still applied as does monitoring.

or a room where a wieght can be lessened then whoever selected can access it for set time after notification is acknowledged.

basically @Appleblossom i think your good value and i respect your mind and posts.

i dont need to know details or ages as a lost sibling is a lost sibling and thats a constant hole that never fills it just gets easier to contain over time.

if i can be honest i get lost i thought you were possibly Koori born and stolen in the name of god for your own good and i say that with my face screwed up and disgust on every letter knowing nothing i could ever experience would bring me close to knowing what they experienced this is not questioning or any tomfuckery i just want you to know i think i got it wrong its not important, what matters is you were deprived love and tenderness you deserved and abused one way or another till you broke away.

ive deleted paragraphs so im stopping i just want you know you are seen and valued by me umm and i respect you and thank you for your humble wisdom, i am mutual and dont need tag you here i missed that and apologise for being self centered lately

@REDLINEZ750 @heartathome @Appleblossom @DownMoreThanUp @avant-garde hi my Christian friends. I am just popping in to ask a favour of y'all.

My friends' husband has just been diagnosed with prostate cancer and he is very worried of course. My friend is a strong Christian however her hubby lost his faith and no longer really believes. We are hoping that this diagnosis will bring him back to God.

I am hoping you might be able to offer him up in your prayers?

Thanks so much, I really appreciate each and every one of you. I will be back later, I have several things I am dealing with at the moment so am taking time away from Sane.

God bless and much love to you all

Enkeli xoxo

Hi @ENKELI ,

Thank you for sharing. We will keep him in our prayers @ENKELI

Hope you are also looking after yourself.

Missing you.

@ENKELI i pray that faith and healing will come for those who need it, including myself.

@tyme @REDLINEZ750 @heartathome @Blackcloud

i wanted to ask for prayer friends. i have been very unwell since last night. i cycled in my raging/evil alter and have been having a really hard time not suppressing myself being like this, or allowing myself to be without love, faith or hope. i'm in a real catch 22. i'm doomed when i do and doomed when i don't.

TW: SA, SI

In a nutshell i'm getting to know God in His wrathful self and resonate completely with Him apart of being willing to lay down my life and die to my rage. When this comes up i rage at him in my untrue perception of Him. i literally spit the dummy at God. My life is really full on! Literally a whirl wind.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fgaxOcdWaQ&list=RD1fgaxOcdWaQ&start_radio=1

I'm sorry this has happened to you last night! @DownMoreThanUp . You were doing so well. Of course I'll be praying for you! I've raged on God many times before! I think he understands! I'm glad your wife was there for you!!

'denying me salvation having become evil. Purposefully making me a vessel of dishonour' doesn't sound like God to me. I think our free will and humanness have consequences. I also think God uses our faith, trauma and mental health issues to help others. You do that very well! I can hear that you're not in that space at the moment.

No wonder i have always hated myself, I can relate to the feeling. I've gotten to the point where I can say I'm okay but 'loving' me is beyond where I'm at. It may still come. I hope it comes to you, too!

Sending much love and hugs 💛