@heartathome Good seeing you around.
Yes i do understand my fight for survival to be spiritual.
Depressive moods has me hearing lies in my head about everything, especially myself. Yet i know from God's Word that lies proceed from an unholy father, and witness that truth, for the creep fathered me a reality in hell. Me living my life believing lies about myself, brought me my pit, which i had mindlessly dug deeper every day tormenting myself their lies.
If it had not for The Word coming to my rescue down deep i would have perished there. For The Spirit pointed out to me that i was in the place prepared for satan and he was feasting my good life squandering it. (Revelation 20:1-6)
(Wrote a poem about waking up to that reality.)
Feasting My Good Life.
The Wicked captivated my truth
the truth of my heart and mind
and wound me around their lies
knotted me out of my own reality
into the dungeons of torture below.
Unable to unravel their cob webs
the wicked took control of my life
and brought much pain and misery
feasting on my God given good life
at the expense of my own welfare.
Yet when Christ light lit up my night
and i saw Him on the clouds of heaven
The Wicked sprung all their traps
thinking i was as good as dead
trapped in their nasty fowler's nets.
Yet the Lion of the tribe of Judea
killed the goats great and small
and set me free from their control
and gave me back my freedom in Him
feasting good times growing New Life.
@Appleblossom @ENKELI @avant-garde @Moose123
The Lord, when He at first took me in His Glory, told me i was not sick in my mind, but that i had been given the gift of discernment by Him. And that this gift had gone wrong in my life. Where already from very early on in my life, this gift harvested me the horrors ruling the moments around me. Jesus has often taken me back there, like being raised from the dead such recall is, to proof His point, as well as heal me from those moments gone wrong. And more and more my psychotic times are disappearing and my gift of discernment works without driving me insane.
i happen to know a few schizophrenic people, and i'm assured, they also have this gift of discernment, with me in common to some degree. However each one of us deal with it according to the baggage we have accumulated on our journey down here. The the lies we have internalised about God/The Truth, ourself, others around us, as well as the universe we find our life in. (what is your take on this @Moose123 also hearing evil voices? (That is if you feel safe to share of course))
Once, years ago, with my closest schizophrenic friend, i was fortunate enough to journeyed the spiritual together openly. (This friend, my age, but severely affected mentally by the confusion pestering him 24/7. He has nevertheless a heart of gold. He literally cannot harm an ant. And once had to be taken out the house he rented, so they could spray the ants nest he had fostered inside feeding the ants.)
Anyhow we came to discussing evil. Now my friend will NEVER accept that people can be evil, for he is the cause of all evil ruling down here himself seeing them. For He is convinced he is Adam and has lost his wife Eve in a previous life.
Yet he knew evil, just like me, did he ever! For he could see them all the time, just like me. However he blamed himself seeing them, and so he blamed himself for being evil refusing to heed or even acknowledge them. While i myself on the other hand had always fought the wicked bitterly from taking me over, he never did, for love ruled his heart the moments. My friend taught me a lot that day. And i have never forgotten our journey together.
Wise words to heed. Lets do this from the inside out!!!
