Christian Chat

aww @DownMoreThanUp it breaks my heart hearing that your parents and wife's parents blame you for your illness. i'm so sorry that you felt so unwanted and unloved by your own parents for so long, but i am glad that your mum has been communicating her love to you a lot more.

sometimes our parents want the best for us and love us, but they're terrible at showing it. i'm glad you have your sister and wife to back you up. so proud of you for forgiving yourself and letting go of that anger. that's something i'm working on too.

here for you 💙

@DownMoreThanUp I forgave my father many years ago. He cheated on mum with his second wife. He was an awful man who should never have had children. His third wife, my stepmonster was a cow of a woman and I am not sad she's dead. I have however forgiven her and I prayed for her to receive Christ before she died. I don't know if she did.

Dad manipulated me to turn me against my mother, he slept with my mothers' sister and he has cheated on every long term partner he's had. He disowned my youngest sister and only just made up with her after 15 years.

I am not playing who has the worst parent, but I know I will never get a blessing from my father, nor will he ever tell me he is proud of me.

I have decided that for now I don't want anything to do with him because I have shed too many tears over him and he has never apologised for being the POS he is.

I am not getting the support I need at the moment so I am going to stay off the forums lest I say something I regret. (not aimed at you or anyone else but I have a tendency to speak my mind when I should let God filter my words first).

Take care and God bless everyone.

hey @ENKELI it really sucks to hear how poorly your father treated you. no one deserves to be treated like that. and yet, you found it in your heart to forgive him and his ex wife and him - that must've taken so much strength!!

i can see that this conversation has brought up some heavy feelings, and i really respect your decision to step away from the forums and look after yourself.

if there's anything we can do to help you feel supported, let us know. we're here for you whenever you're ready 💙

thoughts go with you @ENKELI & prayer

@ENKELI Sorry if i triggered you saying what i did. i can see how this could be bitter to your reality. All i can say is please let God's love pour down on you my dear so your dad's bad life can no longer harm you within.

You are worthy!

You are loved!

You are wonderfully and beautifully made!

You are a Child of the Most High, please let no one bring you down low.

For i know whatever negativity has been forced down your throat about yourself all these years, God knows you as His, and so do we as our sister.

Praying you let the love of God fill you to overflowing.

Thanking Jesus i'm allowed to know you, and share a littler in the struggles you survived Down here! So very good to know you.

Psalm 27:7-14

i beautiful song about all of this that i hope will encourage you as it has me so very often down deep.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ba2R4fKw52w&list=RDBa2R4fKw52w&start_radio=1

@ENKELI 🎵🎹🎶🙏🙏🙏🍎

@DownMoreThanUp Thank you for sharing about your parents. It makes sense and puts your experiences with psychosis and dissociation into perspective.

I am still vulnerable, a bit agitated, but medicated, nodding off, so keeping it brief.

hello all following the Christian chat thread….

Good morning my brothers and sisters in Christ. I hope you all have a good day! 💛

@Appleblossom @DownMoreThanUp @REDLINEZ750 @rav3n @ENKELI plus anyone that I've forgotten.

@heartathome i've been reasonable today. Some nausea, and some low key anxiety at times, but overal the day has been fine.

Life has been good apart of our dog Zeus winching a lot of the time. For his girl Zeta is on heat, and he cannot accept he may not have her. Preferable we separate them, but Zeus is unconsolable when we did that the first time. Keeping me awake most of the night. Now she is with him, but in a cage, so he cannot get to her. Zeta is fine with the cage. She does not like it but does not hate it either. Zeus is impossible to get in there, he break the thing down, to get out. There is NO way he accepts to be the under dog.

He is Zeus himself right?🤣

However now he is drooling all day in front of her cage and at times howls his frustration he cannot be with her. Fully understandable really, but no less a pain in the butt. 6 more days to go after today. Lets hope we all get through it SANE!

have a nice day.🤗

good afternoon @heartathome, hope you have a great day with hubby