Christian Chat

@PeppyPatti @ENKELI @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @heartathome @tyme @Moose123

A poem about the Day Jesus awoke me to the Truth of His love for me.

Twice Blinded

What destroyer, where would he be?
The deadly snake bite I didn't see!
Still part of myself was dragged away,
held captive there by wicked sway,
all the lies sown in my soul,
day by day taking control,
feeding my life lies and misery,
my good times became history.

Bringing thoughts and feelings around,
which are in no way sound,
rather inner kings cruel and strong,
those worldly ways so very wrong,
raising Babylon in all her might,
holding me captive in my fright,
denying grace to rule my ways,
mocking God in His face.

Horse hooves trampling my soul,
grass-hoppers devouring all,
scorpion stings stinging,
famine upon famine bringing,
brimstone burn everything to ash,
massive hailstones me to smash,
the darkness ever growing close,
for the goats got me by the nose.

So working for another's bread,
God's loving truth I forget,
thinking my world would always stink,
driving my good life to the brink,
yet there at the bottom of my might,
I finally began to see the light..,
Jesus whom I bring so much grief,
when I have that liar as my chief!

And so The Truth did shine on me!
His Spirit alive in my heart to see!
Oh what blinding light I saw there?
God's goodness displayed everywhere!
His love washing me white as snow!
His loving truth inside my life to flow!
Oh Lamb of God forever to be praised!
For from the dead I have been raised!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4rKydpw6Qo&list=RDA4rKydpw6Qo&start_radio=1

Good morning @DownMoreThanUp I'm so sorry if it triggered you. That was the last thing I wanted to do but I wanted to show @REDLINEZ750 ! I remember back in the day (60's and the 70's), the church was all about hell and damnation. Nothing about Jesus! I hope my Christian poems don't trigger you! I will put them up bit by bit. I'm glad you're finding your traumatised child. He needs support too. I think self-love is pretty similar as you're supporting and being kind to yourself. I'm also glad that you've found Jesus. We are so blessed! 🙃

@heartathome Please do not be sorry you poem triggered me to tears. Ever since Jesus stands by me i do not mind such triggers at all. Rather i felt deeply that we share a similar inner hell with regards to our inner child, although the abuse we experienced when young has been very different.

Good to see Jesus is getting you through these times as well. Also good to see that writing poems has also been your way to describe the inner turmoil you been through. Such has the power to comfort, support and share your faith, love and hope, with all those still stuck down deep.

Be blessed.

For sadly there are so many thirsty/hurting souls around.

That's a very real poem @DownMoreThanUp ! I feel your pain and see God's goodness in your poem. Thanks for sharing it and the song. My poems were written after leaving the cult. I also wrote a bit when I was married because I found myself in DV. Most of my poems will come out eventually.

Thanks for your reply @DownMoreThanUp I can't help but worry that someone might get triggered. I have to remember this is a strength-based program, not trauma informed! My child is a rebellious child. She doesn't trust much. I used to treat her with contempt. I treat her with empathy these days. 🙃

@heartathome

"My child is a rebellious child. She doesn't trust much. I used to treat her with contempt. I treat her with empathy these days. 🙃"

This is the precise reason i reckon we could share notes about ourselves living these times. For now i know i'm a rebel too in my rejected child. But in the past i've been far to paranoid by the trauma lived, to even poke my head up, until Jesus raised me up. For I myself, in my other alters, would instantly scorn and hate me back into hiding again.

i have always hated myself being too scared to speak my mind, or even acknowledge my existence within self. I called myself, with much scorn and dislike, my (faithless,) weasel self.

So glad Jesus made, and is making an end to me doing this to myself all the time. i now feel that it is wrong forced on me suffering trauma, that has made me hate me gone wrong yet, Jesus loved me all good and able now.

You know what is best meeting God no good? That Jesus makes straight what is crooked , turning the 'money tables' literally upside inside my heart.

His loving truth chasing those hypocritical Pharisees/ Pharaohs/slave-drivers out of my existence with His lightening strikes 😍😍 😍 and those lovely thunders 😍😍 😍 over all of my heart.😍

So Today i rule much of my life beside Him, instead of in the dungeons i've been. No more Babylon ruling me, no more worldly education or religion dictating who i ought to be and who not. Life is great when my Freedom to be me is, no longer exiled, to living Good Life in all of my selves united in Jesus as O(o)ne to be.😀

@DownMoreThanUp I think @tyme want's us on the Christian chat so can we swap over to that. I'm glad you have Jesus as your guide. I can see that you love Him very much! Amazing love! We all need healing! I find I'm my own worst enemy and rely of God to show me when I do put myself down and believe it! It's a healing in process. I hope you are having a good day! 🙃

@heartathome Thanks, you too. Was lovely sharing this morning. Much of it are very actual topics in my life right now. (Sorry @tyme i did not realise at frist you wanted that for the replies on the other poems as well)

Good vs Bad me? Such fruit i will no longer eat! Only Jesus to Dine on from now on for then i can eat, use or do anything to praise God with.

Freedom must mean FREE also for the Gentile me.

Amazing and so uplifting @DownMoreThanUp.

I hope you have a blessed weekend and that the Lord gives you loving guidance and support.

@Moose123 Thank you, to you too my friend.

@heartathome @PeppyPatti @PeppyPatti @ENKELI @Appleblossom

i know suffering voices, hallucinations and psychosis, as well as trauma and depression are terrible afflictions often time bringing us to our deepest lows. Yet The Voice of Love never compels us to use force within ourselves towards ourselves rather to cultivate inner love, togetherness and peace within my divided self. (Psalm 86:11-13)

i know that only in time of peace a Nation prospers, and so is this the truth inside our inner dwelling place.

Life in His Word is my good life summed up in a nutshell

It is The Truth lived in His Love that speaks the clearest. That is why i love this rendering of Psalm 27 by the Sons of Korah.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Yv2jYbuIc8&list=RD8Yv2jYbuIc8&start_radio=1