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Unknown userMember12 Dec 2017, 6:27 pm AEDT

Christian Chat

Hi my friends, this is Bella here, I thought how nice & lovely to have a Thread for Christians. I am not talking about Religion, GOD is Love, GOD gives free will to us all in the world. I have a relationship with GOD through HIS Word-The Bible, most of my life. I became a Pentecostal Christian many years ago. Would you like to come join me here in this Thread?

I am excited about starting it, you can just sit relax, chat about your love, for GOD & JESUS. Or post encouragement for others. Support, or be supported with Prayer. Hey, would you like to, Praise & post links to Praise & Worship music? Stories, or experiences, poetry, fun things to help us have a giggle, lovely pictures, photos, there are so many things you can post & chat about that will Bless & Build us up in The LORD! Life is about giving, loving, healing flows from a loving heart, whom purely wants to- just give!

I hope & pray, you will receive, Peace, Love, & JOY!... & healing in your heart! Amen xo <>< Bella 🙂

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DownMoreThanUpSenior Contributor30 Sept 2025, 4:44 pm AEST

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@heartathome Absolutely, i count myself among the worst of the fallen ones. For knowing this helps thankful love rather than hinders Him.😀

Mental illness sure gives our enemy extra ammunition, for compared to those who have no mental illness, mentally ill people must hear lies far more often, far more intensive, and far more personal.

Father of Lies
Oh you lying tongue stealing our God given Good Life
squandering life's abilities through the illness of our flesh.
Lightening those burning torches devouring aching souls
those ugly deeds done while lies ruled our fallen hearts!

All your offspring within us is numbered to die miserably
to hell with you and all those wicked ones ruling our life
it is you Satan who brought us all our woes, grief and pain
We will hate you forever for lying to us as you did and do.

Birthing new life in Jesus is what you hate to see in our life.
The Truth of God's love rule our mind instead of lie's torment.
Knowing the wicked lies you gave birth to in our hearts will go
The liars burn the flame of God's love for all you made us suffer.

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heartathomeSenior Contributor30 Sept 2025, 5:23 pm AEST

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Thanks for sharing that with me @DownMoreThanUp That poem is so true! I've said many times that I'm my own worst enemy but in reality Satan is Did you write it? Can you tell me a tiny bit of who you are? Male or female? Rough age? It's fine if not! I won't take it personally! 🤗 🙃

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DownMoreThanUpSenior Contributor30 Sept 2025, 6:24 pm AEST

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@heartathome No worries.

i'm a male 65 years old. a husband to a loving and very supportive wife, and dad to 5 children, and grand parent to 18 grand children. (Though most live far away, 7 of the 18 grand kidsl live nearby and we have regularly to do with.)

TW: Abuse (SA)

Content/trigger warning

i have officially been diagnosed with Schizo-affective disorder as well as P.T.S.D because of a violent sexual assault at 11, in which i nearly got killed resisting.

However at a later date, and with a professional psychologist's diagnoses online, i discovered that really i suffer from C.P.T.S.D and D.I.D, all the way back from where psychosis first began to manifest itself in my life. Although i had no idea that is what it was at around 3-4 years of age. (i thought, until well into adulthood, it were the devil and his friends coming to get (and later, that they came to befriend me.))
Where i suffered for years, from psychotically driven paranoia fears basically undetected by my loved ones, for i was too paranoid of their harsh disapproval, and my dad's physical ways of punishment, doing so. Also my psychosis seems to be only triggered by severe emotionally events, and when i recovered in those days i could hardly ever recall what occurred, and who i became, during those times, until i became psychotic again.
While my fears were cruelly fuelled by their legalistic replies to me, daring to come out of bed at first at night, telling them i was scared. All i had to do was have faith in Jesus for then the devil cannot hurt you. Yet truth be told - he did - and kept hurting me all the time, till well after midnight many a night. Drenched in sweat and senseless from fear. If only my parents knew what i went though at the tender age not allowed to come out of bed. For, according to them, all i lacked was faith in Jesus. Yet Jesus never came to help me while i was overcome by psychotic hallucinations that drove my fear to make myself a faithless alter even at a very young age. As well as a (horrible) legalistic religious alter. A complete you have to do it yourself alter in response to my paranoid self where i could not do anything but loose my sanity.The worst was i hated myself the 'weasel' as i called myself cruelly in my - do it yourself alter. Where ever fear i had in my fearful alter, I had to prove wrong by doing it. And so even at a very tender age, fuelled by a dad who did not love, or had wanted me, but loved ridiculing me for who i was, and a mum told me throughout my childhood how she could have had 10 kids in my place, and had me hate myself within myself.After my sexual assault i sadly also developed also a raging very angry with everyone alter. A alter i also suppressed within myself with my religious alter, and where i only ever manifested myself in myself when psychotic. Making my life almost impossibly difficult to figure out.

i have officially been diagnosed with Schizo-affective disorder as well as P.T.S.D because of a violent sexual assault at 11, in which i nearly got killed resisting. However at a later date, and with a professional psychologist's diagnoses online, i discovered that really i suffer from C.P.T.S.D and D.I.D, all the way back from where psychosis first began to manifest itself in my life. Although i had no idea that is what it was at around 3-4 years of age. (i thought, until well into adulthood, it were the devil and his friends coming to get (and later, that they came to befriend me.))Where i suffered for years, from psychotically driven paranoia fears basically undetected by my loved ones, for i was too paranoid of their harsh disapproval, and my dad's physical ways of punishment, doing so. Also my psychosis seems to be only triggered by severe emotionally events, and when i recovered in those days i could hardly ever recall what occurred, and who i became, during those times, until i became psychotic again.While my fears were cruelly fuelled by their legalistic replies to me, daring to come out of bed at first at night, telling them i was scared. All i had to do was have faith in Jesus for then the devil cannot hurt you. Yet truth be told - he did - and kept hurting me all the time, till well after midnight many a night. Drenched in sweat and senseless from fear. If only my parents knew what i went though at the tender age not allowed to come out of bed. For, according to them, all i lacked was faith in Jesus. Yet Jesus never came to help me while i was overcome by psychotic hallucinations that drove my fear to make myself a faithless alter even at a very young age. As well as a (horrible) legalistic religious alter. A complete you have to do it yourself alter in response to my paranoid self where i could not do anything but loose my sanity.The worst was i hated myself the 'weasel' as i called myself cruelly in my - do it yourself alter. Where ever fear i had in my fearful alter, I had to prove wrong by doing it. And so even at a very tender age, fuelled by a dad who did not love, or had wanted me, but loved ridiculing me for who i was, and a mum told me throughout my childhood how she could have had 10 kids in my place, and had me hate myself within myself.After my sexual assault i sadly also developed also a raging very angry with everyone alter. A alter i also suppressed within myself with my religious alter, and where i only ever manifested myself in myself when psychotic. Making my life almost impossibly difficult to figure out.

i began life as a brick layer, but injured my back and got myself a social science degree and a job working with troubled youth on the streets of Perth. Before i burned out completely and illness took over. Mainly because all the suppressed emotions and trauma of my past came bubbling out uncontrollably seeing it the suffering of others, also so effected in my daily work.

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heartathomeSenior Contributor30 Sept 2025, 7:55 pm AEST

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@DownMoreThanUp I think I remember you telling me some of this before. I'm sorry if I've already asked you. Thanks for sharing about your past! It amazes me how strong our God is! It also amazes me how evil some people can be! I'm an incest survivor. I haven't written that before. It seems strange and not really attached to me. Maybe that's healing or dissociation. I'll take the first one! 😉 No. I'm all good! Just putting it out there for everyone to see is a bit daunting! It's a good thing!! 🙃

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Shaz51Senior Contributor01 Oct 2025, 4:24 pm AEST

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This one @heartathome 😊

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heartathomeSenior Contributor01 Oct 2025, 5:18 pm AEST

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Thanks @Shaz51 I appreciate the tag

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DownMoreThanUpSenior Contributor02 Oct 2025, 5:50 am AEST

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@heartathome It has been good chatting with you. i'm sorry to hear you also suffered terrible times, so much hurt within humanity. So very sad to see our Heavenly Father hurting us all, yet also very good to know He does, for i know He will bring all that has gone wrong to a good ending. In my books that is something us hurting ones need to hold onto with all we got.

@Shaz51 @REDLINEZ750 @ENKELI @Appleblossom @tyme

@Moose123if you are interested joining us on the Christian chat thread you are most welcome.

My Armageddon.

In my inner world life died everywhere,
famine taking what sword had left behind.
Brim and hailstones flatten what stood up,
no escape from the carnage I could find.

Awed i saw Jesus the wicked inside me fight,
turning my world of being into a battleground.
I saw billows of smoke rising up ever so high,
rolling thunder throughout my world rebound.

I watched scorpions parading through my soul,
stinging in me what was godless in its lust.
Massive grasshoppers devouring all my good,
fierce horses trample heeding wrong to dust.

I saw much of my inner greenery burn-up,
whole fleets of cargo ships sadly perish.
My daily trade coming to an abrupt hold,
for ungodly rulers wrong in me did cherish.

I saw the Dragon reigning all his subjects,
watched the numbered inside die like flies.
I heard the false prophet's constant lying,
demons smearing God's grace with lies.

It was the blood drinking prostitute,
which flabbergasted me the most.
Unfaithful love killing God's chosen,
with fiery death she was deposed.

I saw my world's kingdom going down,
ruling Babylon in one hour fall away.
Yet with two thirds of my world wiped out,
i watched God's kingdom come to stay.

So seeing God's own safely at home,
i finally let my many tears run dry.
Seeing Jesus ruling from the clouds,
i also joined Heaven's Hallelujah cry.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor02 Oct 2025, 2:34 pm AEST

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@DownMoreThanUp Early CSA leaves a mark. Dissociation is a natural response to severe trauma. You sound like salt of the earth Aussie, tradie plus social conscience. My Aussie father tried to encourage those values in me. Showed me as much as he could before he died. Took me to building sites, navy boats and encouraged a broad range of religious, educational and artistic and sports activities. They called him schizophrenic, but he had CPTSD from the war and institutional CSA. so much for some Christian brothers.

I identify loosely as CPTSD, aspie, maybe schizoaffective disorder or bipolar mixed state. They don’t really have a clue. I have also been studying it at fancy universities since my 20s. Wondered, way back, if I was schizoaffective researching in the bowels of the Baillilieu. I now take it all with a hefty grain of pink Himalayan salt. What is in a name? Words can be great and… a bit inadequate.

I am glad you have a supportive wife.

I mostly have to juggle real life and am careful about religious delusions, cos thats what they said my parents had.

I barely came out of my marriage alive, and the class differences of my husband from well to do American background made it difficult for my brother and I. We were sneered at a lot.

@ENKELI @REDLINEZ750 @Shaz51 @heartathome

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DownMoreThanUpSenior Contributor02 Oct 2025, 3:01 pm AEST

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@Appleblossom i fully agree a label cannot ever define us. However understanding symptoms and triggers has really helped me deal with my ever changing moods and is very helpful. As is communicating with others who have been through a mental blender as well. i very much relate with having to be careful with religious delusions such sure bit me in the bum big time.

@heartathome @Shaz51 @REDLINEZ750 @ENKELI

It is the love of Jesus we want right inside the places the hurt dwells now!

Overcoming The Darkness.
What better time to choose for His light,
than when we are in our darkest night?
Letting the dark ones come so very close,
so God's grace can get rid of all of those.

Merciful removing what hurts without ending.
all that painful wrong to fiery lake be sending.
His good life saving us from all painful control,
The S(s)pirit of truth blessing our heart and soul.

(i love this song!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLTu1xv2-Us&list=RDKLTu1xv2-Us&start_radio=1

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heartathomeSenior Contributor03 Oct 2025, 9:45 am AEST

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@DownMoreThanUp@Appleblossom @Shaz51 @REDLINEZ750 @ENKELI

I wrote this poem 30 years ago; I had to forgive my ex-husband. It was a turbulent 18-month marriage. I was also trying to forgive my uncle for sexual abuse, as a kid. Forgiving him at that time was mostly for me! The only way I could forgive him, was to imagine he was a 1-year-old, putting his arms up for me to pick him up. I was able to do that!

Injustice

Injustice is a fact of life

It happens everyday

Our reaction is a choice

To forgive or make them pay

"Give hurt to God", people say

I have to wonder how

I struggle with two worlds within

I seek the justice now

A silent world to show the pain

I'll make you pay somehow

If that doesn't work, there's more to come

I'll pick until we row

You are wrong, I am right

I want it stamped and sealed

I want justice; It belongs to me

Retaliation, that's my shield

My own defences are cruel and low

I care but can't show how

I want that apology that you owe

I'll fight until you bow

It's not the way I want to be

but it happens every time

It's wrong, I know. I want to change

but who will pay the crime?

Holding onto hurt does what?

Does it cause them pain?

Does it help if both lose out?

Who does it really gain?

Satan, I'm sure, sit's back and laughs

Pride is his special tool

He gets his way when conflict lasts

It's him, not God who rules

Seeking justice here and now

Will never bring us gain

It's not God's way and never will

We need to feel the pain

"It hurt", we cry; it shouldn't be

The person has to pay

I wonder how Jesus must have felt

on the cross that day

Many times, he suffered unfairly

His life was so unjust

He taught us many things while here

Forgiveness seems a must

They spat on Him; they called Him names

They lied and cheated too

How did He make those people pay?

Just what did this man do?

He loved them while they wanted Him ****

He loved them while they lied

He loved them while they nailed his hands

He forgave them when He ****

We love the Lord but not each other

No excused now

Jesus tells us what to do

His life will show us how

He didn't say it would be easy

In fact, He knew we'd fall

That's why He stayed upon the cross

He waits for us to call

The longer we hold our hurt and pain

The more resentment grows

The tighter and closer we hold it now

Means the harder it'll be to let go

It's up to us, what we choose

God won't force His way

We choose to get what is due

Or love and forgive this day

Look at Jesus; go His way

I know it's for our best

Although it's hard, it's worth the effort

His life has promised rest!

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