Walking on the road to recovery ........ 🤔

Thanks @outlander 💐🤗💜

Gentle Hugs @Teej

I could relate to a lot of your post.

Sadly RESPECT is in short supply in current times.

I have had been indulging in a sugar tour too. Unusual for me, and not in excess, going with the having constant supply for a bit, tho will eventually tire of it I think. Anyway it means I browse freely at the supermarket and bring a little variety to my days. I have to cut salt, so something had to give ... excuses excuses.

Your the first person I did pokey out tongue with.

Love seeing you Bella Teej.

I love that response @Appleblossom 💜🤗. Feeling a bit honoured that you poked your tongue out at me in cheekiness. 😘

Im trying to get my sugar fix in a piece of fruit now. Salt is another hard one......I am also a salt fiend. :face_with_rolling_eyes:

@Teej Yeah. I thought I was good about added salt, but it means no olives, and then I realised no ham, no bacon. Cat was lucky I gave it to him.

Thank you for sharing so many of your thoughts regarding diagnosis and reality.

My straightforward answer is I can’t live with my diagnosis. Right now it’s too hard considering I have faked it for so long.

i truly admire you for sharing so truthfully and wanting to be who you are. Unfortunately I am not in that place yet @Teej

One of my issues is that nobody has wanted to commit to a diagnosis at least to my face. First went to a pdoc when I was 17. This is going to get tested as the NDIS want reports, but my psychiatrist has been AWOL or MIA. I cant get through on the phone and he has not responded to my contact form on his website. He also "forgot" to email my Gp last year about my diagnosis. I am forgiving as usual. Well it will all come out in the wash ...

Thanks for the reply @Eve7 . I think the first step for me was accepting my diagnosis. I spent time dialing with acceptance and denial. I'm kind of scared to mention time frames but this is my 9th year of dealing with my mental health. Part of that was because I was misdiagnosed. It wasn't until I had a psychiatrist I trusted that I've been more accepting and then researching. I've been taking medication for this diagnosis for more than a year now so it's been a long time working through accepting and now understanding.

It's ok not to be in the place where you can see a light. I have lots of days I think that I don't want to stay alive with all that's ahead of me. There are days though that I strive to make things better. It took a lot of me making things worse (sh and s attempts) before I have been in a headspace to be able to make things better. It's all just part of the wild ride of recovery. I don't know what comes next either.

Take good care of you. Remember that we all go through things in the best way we can. Everyone's path to recovery is different......and it's a life time of work. Perhaps, as the saying goes, that it's the journey that is the most important part, and not the destination. 💜🤗

Its always good to see your name pop up @Teej .