Walking on the road to recovery ........ 🤔

I think I can do that day-to-day @Teej ....thanks. Sort of like living in a bubble for the day .... a painting day ... a sketching day .... a do-something-for-D2-day .... but can’t make plans beyond the short term because nothing is properly stable ... like it’s nomadic. At least there is a lot to explore here, lots to do and see, and ready public transport, which I am enjoying ...

It actually feels like I am slowly piecing back together who I was before the w.h / e.d. tsunami hi-it .... starting to think about my own tastes and interests .... and enjoying having blue hair for the moment .... 😏

Recovery sucks :face_with_rolling_eyes:😳

my latest thoughts on recovery are about how important it is to know yourself really well. My latest lots of implosions have come from lots of 'I’m supposed to be'.

I’m supposed to be doing better as I know I’m on the right dose and kind of AD

im supposed to be doing better because I’m getting out of the house more and conquered new challenges.

Im supposed to be doing better because I feel supported

I’m supposed to be doing better because there are no real big stresses in my life just now.

but that’s not how it works. My brain gets so hooked into these things until I implode. The final reality check came yesterday when I was refusing to feel hot because the weather was meant to be cooler. My plants didn’t need water because it was supposed to be cooler. By the evening I was sweating like mad and my plants were shriveled because my brain got caught into the supposed to be and not what is.

Today im supposed to be at group but I couldn’t do it. I need so desperately to sort some things at home. Does anyone else fight this kind of reality?

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope.

had just got myself in all sorts of tangles. Wanted to delete all my posts and was self destructing but just got 'readjusted' (or possibly re-ajisted 🐎😜) from a helpline.

My final point of despair came last night when I couldn’t sleep and kept getting woken up from ants on an ant trail across my bed and flies in my room. I realised I’m pretty much in hell and needed help to get my head around addressing this. I’ve been spinning in circles all morning. It would be helpful for anyone to check in at some stage if you’re up to it. I think I need help to stay focused to get this done and my bedroom manageable and hygienic again. I would freak out if my kids lived like this or anyone else. I so need to clean it and make it hygienic again because it’s just not. 😒😱☹️🤦‍♀️

Well if I wasn’t quite so distracted writing a speech to @CheerBear, @Faith-and-Hope I’d be flying 😜😝. Only joking. I have all the towels that were scattered on the floor in the machine and just finished as I hit post. About to put the sheets that could walk on their own but might crumble to pieces in the machine. Thank you so much both for the support. I’m needing a big leg up this week not to end up like friday. 💜🤗😘

Way to go @Teej. I hope it's okay to offer my support here.

I hate having ants crawling on me. I find a bit of a vacuuming fixes their little red wagons for a bit, gets rid of anything (food or skin crumbs) that they might be chasing down too.

If I might share a 'trick' I use sometimes when I want a room tidy but don't have time or energy to put everything away right then. I grab a box, couple of them depending on what and where the stuff is to go, or wash baskets even, and roughly sort the doesn't-belong-here stuff into them for easier putting away later.

'Course, those boxes will need sorting later, or it just keeps piling up, but it's a quick fix to help in the right-here-right-now department.

HOpe it's going well over your way. @Teej @CheerBear @Faith-and-Hope