TRIGGERRED!!!!!

My counsellor I currently see (and I've seen before) is gay. I couldn’t care less really, but with our previous contact earlier this year, she had me wondering for some time until she talked about in general conversation. She is an amazing person, and very good at what she does.

@Queenie

Thats weird but great! @Queenie
I seen you had some fun last night which was good to see. Told you, you arent a ghost

@Queenie - good morning. You changed your avatar, and I love it!

@outlander Morning lil Sis. I see you are having a hard time of things lately. Sounds like it's all getting too much. Can you break down your jobs/chores into small chunks? And do them a bit at a time?

Im not really coping at all @Sans911 i have those horrible sh/si thoughts swirling around. I had plans come to mind yesterday but i couldnt say anything here.
I vaccummed the lounge room so far

Ok @outlander. That's not so helpful. Self care, and lots today. You've been through some very heavy stuff lately. Not only your own serious illness but your Pop as well. You have overwhelming & ongoing mh issues. Your mother has just moved out, so family dynamics have changed slightly. Lots and lots of things.

You're strong @outlander. You can take this tough journey, as hard as it is. You've been doing so for so long already. In time, life will get smoother. Try to distract yourself from SH today, but it becomes all too much, please call KHL or SANE chat.

You don't need to hurt yourself more than you are right now. Just breathe in those thoughts of negative feelings, then breathe them out.

I'm here for quite a while this morning. I have a GP appt in 3 hours, so let's work through this together

I heard from the surgeon yesterday and pop goes in for testing on the 14th as well.

Ok sis lets tey and work through the mess. Im geting worried iwont be able to handle it anymore at all esp with those thoughts of plans coming back thats usually when i struggle the most
@Sans911