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When will it stop

Unknown userMember

When will it stop

Yesterday I took a big step and saw a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with bipolar. It didn't really hit me and I was like oh well what ever. <br><br>Today though it has sunken in. Today I feel defective like I'm not a normal human. Like I'm not good enough as others! I feel angry that I got it! I feel ashamed that I got it! <br><br>The doctor is already talking medication but to be honest I think what's the point. I'm tiered of fighting for a normal healthy life! I don't want to have to take a tablet to feel normal. For once I just want something to be easy. I want to be like everyone else. Normal! <br><br>I came from a very abusive family and every day I fight to live a life with standards and a lifestyle that is normal and I just think what's the point? I'm obviously not meant to be anything great but just a mess like my whole family. <br><br>So to cope with the day I've turned to my favourite self harm and pain killers. I feel like such a low life loser. <br><br>Has anyone else felt like this?

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HappynessSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

I think hip hop is really hip and really cool
But is rap as hip as hip hop

You should check out "Gangsta Rap Made Me Do It" by Ice Cube

I wouldn't recommend it for people under 21

But its sort of funny for a hardcore gangsta rap song

Yeah

I think you should check out some hardcore rap

Its sort of fun

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BabooSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

Ha! that sounds fun as XD

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

I did hip hop with a lady who married a lovely Ghanian. Its keeping them knees low and pelvis forward that is the secret ...sorry if its TMI

norty norty no ganagsta rap /// snot nice

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ArtaudSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

Hi Atraud here. Things can be tough sometimes and it can be hard to see the postives in a situtation. If life is getting to tough you can always call lifeline 131114 and have a chat.

Regards

Artaud

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DurangoSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

Hi Loulathecat,

Sounds like a really tough day yesterday yet you still managed to cook a nice dinner to share with your husband. When you start feeling like you are useless and that your husband would be better off without you it is important to talk to someone for support. Those thoughts are the Mental Illness not the true you. Try to imagine these thoughts as nothing more than a little devil sitting on your shoulder trying to control your thoughts and feelings and tell it to be quiet, shove it or to F$#k off if you need to get firm! Sometimes when I start with negative self talk I say to myself "very funny" and shut them down. I just want you to remember that you are not your mental illness and that you are loved, important and a valuable person who has a shitty illness. If you feel that you need to talk to someone please consider calling:

  • Lifeline 13 11 14
  • Beyond Blue 1300 224 636
  • Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467

Take care and thanks for being part of the forums.

Durango

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HappynessSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

Hello Loulathecat

Having a diagnosis might not be bad

Don't be scared to get as much medical information as possible

You could look forward to working on your recovery at whatever pace is comfortable for you

I'm not saying its easy

Working on recovery for me is so hard

But I have insight that even small steps in recovery is something positive

I'm only trying to help

Hope been useful

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HappynessSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

I apologise

Please forgive me

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HappynessSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

To the Indigenous People of "Australia"

I'm Sorry

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Unknown userMember

Re: When will it stop

Thanks for the kind words everyone. Yesterday was just a pure black day. Today I'm feeling 5% better. I've got a few strategies in place I use so I don't do anything to drastic

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

Re: When will it stop

@Happyness I am with you on the Sorry Business

@Former-Member Glad you are finding strategies that work for you .. thinking of you

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