I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

I agree with what @Zoe7 had said @outlander

My husband had been through so many psychologists because they gave up on him and gave him someone new all the time

That is a competely different response altogether @outlander

That is something that you have brought up with her and seems to be the key to how you feel - and I would summise that she also sees it this way. Therefore the constant attempts to bring this up with you is her getting to the core of where your thinking is at as a basis for moving forward with other 'stuff'.

From what I have seen here - this is something that really needs to be addressed as before you do anything else - this needs to be put into a context that you can work on and understand within yourself.

Changing psychologists will not change what is at the core of your issues - so if it is solely through trying to avoid dealing with the 'tough' stuff then you need to think about it very carefully.

So - I think the relationshio between you and your psychologist is probabky not the most 'productive' one however this issue that she 'keeps bringing up' is still something you need to further explore.

oh @outlander

Sorry to hear how you are feeling. Bad dreams and not much sleep seem to magnify my dark thoughts...so wish I had some helpful advice. The only suggestion I can offer is not to spend too much time alone with your thoughts as I find if I'm not in a good head space and I'm trying to just sit with my feelings, the anxiety and distress is overwhelming. I hope I've not triggered you. Please keep talking here because I tend to bottle things up, and this is the place where I can be more "me" than anywhere else.

Thinking of you.

@outlander firstly you need to check when you can do another MHCP and then read the MHCP thread for added suggestions there.

Secondly your mother is part of the 'problem' with how you feel about your psychologist so you need to not even consider her in this scenario - whatever you believe the consequences will be - as that is further holding you back and adding to you not being able to seek the help you need

@outlander I would suggest that all the things we have talked about re: your psychologist you also need to think about with your psychiatrist and GP i.e. do they provide a safe, non-judgemental and confidential arena for you and do you feel that they have your best interestsat heart. Again - a relatinship with any MH professional needs to be based on trust and comfortability in order for you to be able to receive the help needed and be able to move forward.

@Shaz51 if you are still around - I need to step away for a little while - so can I leave Outlander in your capable hands?

Yes , I am here my sister @Zoe7 xx

ok lil sister @outlander xx

thankyou my sister @Shaz51 you're a legend

@outlander not abandoning you just need some 'screen-free' time and meds for headache. Will come back when it gets a little better - you and Shaz have got this lil caterpillar