outlanderSenior Contributor
I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
I dont know how much longer i can keep going on like this anymore. I feel completely defeated right about now
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I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Sounds like you got some good things in place @Sans911
Early morning beach walks are good and im glad your foster sister treats you really well. You deserve that and im sure shes loves having you around. Im liking these positive! Plans you have in place. Well done sis ❤
@Bunniekins when i stayed in one of the psych wards here. Our toothbrushes actually got taken away and when we wanted to use them we had to ask for them back. No phones. No music unless an ipod that you could have earphones out of but jot many that arent phone like these days. When i wanted to draw they had to sharpen the pencils though when i was in there they alone for 2 days they let me have it for 3 minutes at a time while they were in the office. But could see me. Security cameras everywhere except the bathroom and bedrooms were more private though with nirses still being able to see and half hr/ hourly checks. The games cupboard that had puzzles were locked except for a few hrs through the day.
@Owlunar yea zombie like but having to do work. Everyones going on holidays atm so its increased my work. Havent had the kids yet but after Tuesday will have them everyday until someones next day off usually a Sunday.
Not looking forward to wednesday however which is when we start moving the horses and then have to go through all this constant shit again. I think u were here at that time before almost ayr ago now.
Im waiting on our current paddock owner to yell at me for something my mother should be doing. So feeling pretty tense as ive told mum to do it for the past 2 days now
Anyways at work again... talking in between jobs. Have another 3 horses to do then back home again.
Early morning beach walks are good and im glad your foster sister treats you really well. You deserve that and im sure shes loves having you around. Im liking these positive! Plans you have in place. Well done sis ❤
@Bunniekins when i stayed in one of the psych wards here. Our toothbrushes actually got taken away and when we wanted to use them we had to ask for them back. No phones. No music unless an ipod that you could have earphones out of but jot many that arent phone like these days. When i wanted to draw they had to sharpen the pencils though when i was in there they alone for 2 days they let me have it for 3 minutes at a time while they were in the office. But could see me. Security cameras everywhere except the bathroom and bedrooms were more private though with nirses still being able to see and half hr/ hourly checks. The games cupboard that had puzzles were locked except for a few hrs through the day.
@Owlunar yea zombie like but having to do work. Everyones going on holidays atm so its increased my work. Havent had the kids yet but after Tuesday will have them everyday until someones next day off usually a Sunday.
Not looking forward to wednesday however which is when we start moving the horses and then have to go through all this constant shit again. I think u were here at that time before almost ayr ago now.
Im waiting on our current paddock owner to yell at me for something my mother should be doing. So feeling pretty tense as ive told mum to do it for the past 2 days now
Anyways at work again... talking in between jobs. Have another 3 horses to do then back home again.
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BunniekinsSenior Contributor
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@Sans911 o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o ... sounds terrifying ... what a thing to do to a young woman just learning. It would put the fear of God into me as an older woman ... yes I to can function quite well with the right medication. That is the key for me the right medication.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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massive trigger!!!!!!
is anyone around to tlak to, about anything!!????
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QueenieSenior Contributor
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of course @outlander! I'm around, unless of course I was the trigger...
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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no of course not @Queenie it was a stupid article on my news feed
who the heck puts woman ma**ed to death by dogs. fk me! im on worldwide news so i can say the heading as it wont identify my location.
hitting so hard to home!!!!!!
i am so lethargic i can barely move. i already had alot of anxiety before that and when i went to have a shower basically collapsed. i didnt need this tonight
ive got stupid cmas carol on and they are making me more irritated so ive had to turn them off
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QueenieSenior Contributor
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Oh dear @outlander, that would be awful to read. It's just what you didn't need at all. I avoid the news for fear of it upsetting me. I find some people can be so unthinking in sharing news stories in how it could potentially affect others.
Can you try for an early night and listen to music YOU have chosen? Something like Spotify or something? I'm listening to music on my laptop drowning out the Carols in the Domain in the background. I always find them (and the ones on Christmas Eve) so irritating myself.
Sitting with you my friend.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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hi @outlander
dont worry, i hate the carols as well. Bloody woeful and a trigger for depression. It was funny reading the hate on twitter
dont worry, i hate the carols as well. Bloody woeful and a trigger for depression. It was funny reading the hate on twitter
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander I'm here lil Sis. Battery all charged up. Headache just a dull buzz now after a nurse chased up some anti-inflammatory meds for me. Book finished; now onto another.
One nurse I particularly connected to earlier in the year is working this afternoon. She's not my nurse, but she made time for a chat with me. It was really nice to talk to her.
Sorry you've been triggered sweet. Try to take your mind off it. I can sit here with you too.
Have you heard from @Former-Member today? I hope she's just laying low, and that she's alright.
One nurse I particularly connected to earlier in the year is working this afternoon. She's not my nurse, but she made time for a chat with me. It was really nice to talk to her.
Sorry you've been triggered sweet. Try to take your mind off it. I can sit here with you too.
Have you heard from @Former-Member today? I hope she's just laying low, and that she's alright.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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its so horrible @Queenie i thought id gotten rid of all the news type articles off my fb, guess not. its gone now but it doesnt help the way i feel now. yes i find the carols rather irritating and i dont know why. i choose not to watch them at all. im waiting for mrs browns boys to come on after it in 20 minutes.
im so tired Q, but my body is so overwhelmed wth anxiety and emotions i can barely sit still. not eve music is helping me. and with thunder going on outside each rumble it makes it worse and worse.
what sort of comments @MDT i dont even read those...
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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thats good. im glad youve been able to have a chat with her @Sans911
i am so over all this. i already collapsed earlier on and now this. im in bed but i need to get up but i cant and its frustrating me so much. its made me that anxious that ive scratched so much that my feet are burning and i cant even watch what i wanted to now becasue the signal has gone.
no.. i havent heard from her today, i hope shes ok
