I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

is anyone around. having a rough time..

Hello @outlander

I am around this afternoon, what is happening for you today? 🙂

@outlanderI am around hun

everything is so damn hard 😞 i hate living this life.

i went to my gp appointment and was greated with -oh your here again, what do you need now.

i told my gp about my pain and she looked at me like i was a freak. i told her about the pain and the past meds etc and she said it is unlikley you would have another kidney issue. your too young to be having all these issues. here do another urine sample and then we will go from there

then she said well i havent heard back from the psychiatrist so i cant do anything about your new medications. so she gave her a ring but she isnt in today so no new meds again,. i said ok well ill come back next week and she said 'again?' and i said yeah i think i need to increase my supports again as my mh is deteriorating. she said 'you seem fine to me you are actually doing well and i dont think its neccessary but if thats what you have to do then do it' that was after i told her about my suicidal thoughts, my sh urges and also how i had plans come back into my head.

i am so tired of all this. i am sick of being in pain (neck has flared causing overly tiredness, headaches,sore teeth and jaw stiffness, dizziness,( and hot flushes for some reason) )

when does it ever stop? the gp doesnt even want me there. whats the point in getting anymore help. they dont even want me there.

@outlanderI am sorry today didn't go well. It is super unhelpful when we try and reach out for help but feel llike we get knocked back and not understood or listened to.

Is there a chance you could go to another GP? I know you said you didn't want to tell your story again, however a supportive GP is so necessary when we are struggling so much like you are. It might be hard at the start but could be so worth it. Just have a think about it hun.

I often ask myself the same question, when does it ever stop. i wish I had the answer for you but unfortunately I don't.

Am here for you hun and sitting with you

That was my thought too @Former-Member @outlander ......

@outlanderit is a shame that you can tell two different Gp's the same thing and they will react in totally different ways.

I wish I could be more help to you and give you the answers you need. If you need to go to bed than go. Can you have a nice bath or shower to try and help.