I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

@outlander I am about to head off to bed but I just wanted to say that I agree with @Owlunar regarding throwing more medication into the mix. It is very well established that medication should not be used as a first-line treatment for BPD. It is useful in treating comorbid conditions such as depression, but not BPD itself. I am noticing that you are often saying you are out of options but you are yet to try one of the most well-researched and effective treatments for BPD, namely DBT. I'm sorry if this is coming across as a little harsh, but I don't really understand why you keep saying there is no hope when you are yet to try a treatment that was actually developed by someone with BPD and that has helped so many people. DBT is certainly not a magic cure by any means, but it is definitely worth trying - and I can guarantee it won't cause rashes or liver issues. Again, I hope this doesn't sound too harsh, I'm just not clear on why you keep saying there is no hope when you are yet to try such a well researched therapeutic approach.

Night.

That's good @outlander - very very good

I was pretty immature when I started my journey into parenthood - a few years older than you - an accountant true - I actually earned more than my husband at the time and yet never saw the red-flags nearly hitting me in the eye

However having made the decision I stayed with it - never even thinking how nearly 50 years later it had totally changed my life

So here's the thing- you have already been tested in a huge way - and not found wanting at all in some areas - woefully neglected in many ways but still a very kind and thoughtful person - putting others ahead of yourself rather too much at times -

I think a long way in the future you will see yourself quite differently - not as screwed up as you feel now but as a person who has been used and abused by people who really need to take a good look at themselves

But that is in time to come - right now you have to work your way out of where you are - and it's pretty sure your brain is suffering from all the medication you have been prescribed

I really need to go to bed pretty soon - I have cut back on the extra pain medication I was given but had to take extra late today and it's catching up with me - but I will be thinking of you

Dec

@outlander @Sans911 good night to you both. I am going to log off now. Still will be sitting next to you both. Not comfotrable reading some comments if you know what I mean. Not sure what to do anymore so am just going to go

You said that well @Phoenix_Rising

Dec

@outlandersaw that you were on before hun, hope everything is ok

@outlanderam here sis if you want to talk about it or we can just sit. Glad to see you on here, am worried about you