I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Hi @outlander

I understand - right now you feel as if you have screwed everything up and it's a real puzzle

So - now is the time to just sit and wait for the storm to work it's way in and through and out the other side of this - and yeah big time

You are taking enough medication - the thought of your doctor just chucking in a couple more to give it all a try sounds like bad news to me - that's not enough reason - it might be an idea and this is just an idea - to take a few less and see if your brain can sort itself out without as much pyschotrophic interference

But that's just me - so talk to the doctor first

There is something to be said for clearing the mind and learning to deal with the anxiety - I am wondering if you would be open to that and talking about it with your doctor - they are - after all - only human and trying to work out an unworkable puzzle in someone else's mind and it seems plain to me that many of your problems are social and family related

You are an incredibly strong young woman - I have been told that I am a strong person - usually at a time when I feel anything but however the truth is that you are still going - somehow - in spite of all of the confusion

So - rather than add something to make you worse ask your doctor what you can do without - I think you do need something to stabilize you -

Please don't act on anything I have written here without talking to your doctor but wow - you are taking a lot of stuff - no wonder trying to work the puzzle out is hard

I think I have said talk to your doctor first often enough - that's important - I just think that life being better for you is only am arm's distance away from you and you are nearly there

Dec

'1. a side effect is apparently people can break out in a very obvious rash the mostly covers the upper body' and then possible liver damage ...

Jesus ...

@Sans911

@Owlunaryeah im speaking to my gp about this one, its not worth the risk. i took at look at the more common side effects and i dont even want to put up with those itll more than likley affect my ability to drive as it can make you lose your sense of self and cordination, and the more common like nausea, back pain, stomach ache, insomnia, suicidal thoughts.

yes, you sure are a strong person. very strong, ive read your story and still learning every time you write.

@outlanderhappy to sit here with you and @Sans911. I don't think I can have a proper conversation anyway. Watching BBT