outlanderSenior Contributor
I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
I dont know how much longer i can keep going on like this anymore. I feel completely defeated right about now
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I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Sans911 your so cute!! I cant help but smile when you be little miss nurse 🙃🙃
lol yes analyzing everything is fun. Thanks for explaining all that or at least having ago at it. Ill be taking them nonetheless it just made me think wtf am i taking.
Bodies are so complicated! Then add stress and whatever else on top.
She said a kidney infection and a viral infection thats causing the cough. Ive only had it since ive had the pain its all just yuk!
lol yes analyzing everything is fun. Thanks for explaining all that or at least having ago at it. Ill be taking them nonetheless it just made me think wtf am i taking.
Bodies are so complicated! Then add stress and whatever else on top.
She said a kidney infection and a viral infection thats causing the cough. Ive only had it since ive had the pain its all just yuk!
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander can you actually believe when I mentioned to my mh case manager about these forums, and that I have told people of my profession, that she essentially told that I shouldn't 1.be here and 2.shouldn't tell anyone of my occupation, particularly that! I couldn't believe it. I understand why she thinks that these forums aren't good for me, but really?! Here is where I can often say things I can't say to her. This is part of why this last week or so has been so hard. I feel I can't please anyone, even myself.
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Unknown userMember
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@Sans911it has been already said that you have been making very good decisions for yourself lately so I wouldn't worry what your MH worker thinks of you being on here or telling people your occupation. I think these forums benefit us greatly and I agree that I say things on here that I wouldn't to anyone else. I hope that from making you own decision you can start to please yourself becasue when it comes it you, you are all the matters.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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There will always be a mixed response to the use of the forums @Sans911 ...... but only you truly know what it means to be here.
It's a frequent comment here on the threads that being a part of the forums is what someone credits to still being alive ..... still trying ..... still connecting ...... still listening ......
I had reached a point of needing to leave my family situation ...... I had nothing left to give at that stage ...... ahead of being carried forward here when I could no longer carry myself forward ...... and on the support I found here I have rested and restored enough to go on a little further ......
If I begin to receive specialist support over our family situation in a way that has meaning for our family dynamic ...... not just the removing of family members from it ...... I might be able to continue believing that we can make it through in one piece.
Nobody else is living your exact reality @Sans911 ...... and they don't have to live your outcomes. If you are feeling that you can express yourself here, and be heard and respected, in ways you can't anywhere else ..... imo that is gold ❣️
It's a frequent comment here on the threads that being a part of the forums is what someone credits to still being alive ..... still trying ..... still connecting ...... still listening ......
I had reached a point of needing to leave my family situation ...... I had nothing left to give at that stage ...... ahead of being carried forward here when I could no longer carry myself forward ...... and on the support I found here I have rested and restored enough to go on a little further ......
If I begin to receive specialist support over our family situation in a way that has meaning for our family dynamic ...... not just the removing of family members from it ...... I might be able to continue believing that we can make it through in one piece.
Nobody else is living your exact reality @Sans911 ...... and they don't have to live your outcomes. If you are feeling that you can express yourself here, and be heard and respected, in ways you can't anywhere else ..... imo that is gold ❣️
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member - but it does matter, especially for me, what others think. It's how I have functioned my whole life. I know it's not helping me, as it causes me a lot of distress. I've a lot of work to do on this. Deep down, I know I matter, I need to matter for me, but for now, how I matter to others, is more important.
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Unknown userMember
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@Sans911I can't speak for others but you matter a great deal to me. Your kindness, empathy, compassion, thoughtfulness and advice that you have shown me, matter a great deal to me.
I think we all care what others think of us. This is a big reason why alot of my family/friends don't know what is happening with me. Its the reason why I have withdrawn from people.
So you do matter to a great deal to me and you always will
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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You matter to me too @Sans911 .......
Rainbow thoughts incoming ...... 🌈💕
Rainbow thoughts incoming ...... 🌈💕
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hello @Sans911
I agree with faith and hope....I also understand where you are coming from as well...
I have been there...for far too long in fact...
I now remind myself....they do not know my story...they do not need to...
what they think I cannot possibly know...I cannot guess...I cannot assume....they might not even be thinking about me....heaven forbid when that idea hit me...most people who have not experienced a mental illness do not have the same self awareness that we have...they can be fairly egotistical...self-absorbed...
so wasting my energy on worrying what others are thinking about me has proven to have wasted many hours in my younger years...
I do not need their approval...they do not have to like me...
I do have to like myself though...
is that something along the lines of how you are thinking? I hope that it does not sound like a lecture either...I have a habit of writing how I am feeling...this subject is something that I am very passionate about..
you are a very important person on these forums.....I have read many responses that you have written to others....
self-esteem is one of the hard baskets that we tend to push aside to get through everything else...it is very much a part of who we are...
if you were responding to this post...as in someone else had written it...what would you say to them?
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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You matter to me too @Sans911 .......
Hello @Faith-and-Hope, @outlander, @Former-Member, @Former-Member 
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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My angel @Sans911 I agree with what everyone else here is saying. You mean a great deal to me and like you others opinions of my matter more than what I think of myself. Like many here I hide the real me, I cant show or say what im really thinking because well you know the past with them.
When I first came here, I slipped up to an old psych and I said 'oh the other day I was searching for info when I come across a site called sane and theres a forum' didnt I cop it for many reasons blah blah blah. They dont know im hear cause I said oh ok, I wont go there then. Well im still here now and that was almost a yr ago. This is my sceret well not not so secret life where I can actually be me and say a few things here that I cant say in life for the csa for example.
F&H said there are comments about being here saving people, I might not be here today if it wasnt for the forums. Your still relatively 'new' to my story but when I first came here it was bad. Ive had my a** saved quite a few times from being here and basically talked out of things that were going through my mind, or helped sort through whatever thought/emotion it was I was going through.
@Faith-and-Hope I think you were one of the very first people I met here on the forums so thank you to you too!
You matter a lot to me too @Sans911 Your a very worthy person, even if you cant see it yourself. It takes a while lot to me to trust anyone and your one of the ones I trust a great deal your one of my 'people' I call you big sis, and that wont change
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