I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Hi @Former-Member

We all have triggers @Former-Member and I certainly understand - some are worse than others and I can read here how different people are differently traumatised and last night that was a bad one

I hope you are okay with this today - I know your mother is really horrible at times and I had this with my mother but I was not her carer and walked away from it - but if this idea seems a solution - it's just as hard - I wrote to my mother for 2.5 years but never heard a word and that was painful as well esp when I learned she had been very ill for that time - and I seriously wonder about my sister's duty of care for our mother when she was reading my letters and not letting me know

But families - some are wonderful but then - there can be so much hate engendered there I wonder a whole lot and I do not feel that hate myself so I am bemused by it - but here we are

I know you have worked in really undesirable aged-care facilities - I know the place where my parents were was good - a really beautiful place but I think that it can also be hell - even in the best of places - and I have an idea that article was about in-patient care for MI people and I had a serve of that myself and gave everyone a hard time with my own behaviour and think back that it was the best place to behave like that - I found the system to be lacking therapy or any real help and let them know. It was a long time ago

Seeing as I don't know much more than that I have said enough but I certainly understand your triggers - I have had a few myself in the last week - not as serious but more closer to home - I think my cat is ill - I have made an appointment for her at the vet next week - she had a serious weight loss over a year's duration and had tests and put some weight on but has lost a lot and feels so skinny I am concerned for her life now as I will not let her suffer if the previous dx proves true

And that one hurts - however we can't know how things trigger people and how it feels for them - we all have stuff and some things hurt more, some things unsettle more, some are traumatic and set of our PTSD - we can't compare our problems but I am certainly reasurred here of how people care for each other

We all habe different degrees of emotional discomfort - people who insist they are okay in this world may not be - it is a tough world to live in and I hope you are okay today

Dec

I hope to do my big walk @outlander tonight,it's hard the way I'm feeling sluggish At least I know I am low ,I had it for months last year and was really bad in March when I couldn't walk from the car to hospital as I was out of breath and spacing out with no oxygen to the brain.thnx.😏

@outlander I am glad the doctor could see it and has done something about it. Hopefully with antibiotics 3 times a day it will clear up quickly and can get you out of the pain you are in. Good job on going back there and getting more help. Proud of you sis💕