I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

thanks @Zoe7 no rush 🙂

@CheerBearthank you so much for sharing all of that- cant see the pic as yet though so will get back to you on that. ill try and and work out my options with the other stuff as well..

thanks heaps

@outlander

I have just caught up a bit on this thread though maybe not all.

I am glad you have support from lots of different people in their unique ways.

The good thing is that you can take what you need, and drop things that do not help.

Sometimes I might not be able to take on something that had a beneficial angle until well after it has been suggested.

I do not believe people deserve mental health issues.

What is, is. Your situation and personality have positives, so work with that.

I do believe that all people struggle with mental health issues whether or not they seek help or are diagnosed.

LIFE is far to darned complicated. Just saying hi. Dont think I can add anything but it is great to break things down,

I had a weird experience today about processing the past. It started as upbeat chat about someone's home town and before I knew out popped some pain. It was alright though, as it meant that the other person became more upfront and genuine too and so we jelled better.

yes but your essays are quite useful @CheerBear 🙂

hi @Appleblossom thank you for taking the time to read even some of this. thats ok, popping in is enough im trying to work with what i have, i just have to learn to do so. its harder than it looks, but i know everyone has their own issues to work with so can sympathise.

again thanks for swinging past, and im glad that you had that unusal but good experience today

@outlanderi should never had said what I said to you. Now P_R is in crisis and its my fault.

Our past matters because it is what our memories and experiences are made of. We can only do so much in turning everything into a positive.

I was turning it into a positive and joking and meeting 2 new group leaders, when all of a sudden. I remembered that the people I was talking about with eagerness and fondness had both died by suicide. It did not swamp me and I could acknowledge them and I instinctively covered my mouth with fear I had said the wrong thing again, but also knew that it was the right thing because it allowed more authenticity in the group. My mood dipped into the painful memory only briefly. It was shared and then my mood lifted again and we proceeded with business. which was to do a group called "Flourish." I was a consumer, but also the oldest, so I did feel some responsiblity.

Just saying its about finding your path whilst connecting to your feelings.

@Former-Memberyou also said DO NOT that is a warning in the first place. theres no way you meant to do that. your not to know any triggers of others you were directing it at me and also warned me as well and said its triggering.

@outlanderI know but it is still my fault. If anything happens I would never forgive myself.

@Appleblossomso its like doing things despite the difficulty and moving forward from there? is that what you mean by finding your path whilst connecting to your feelings?