I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

@Former-Member@outlander@Former-Member I just had a nightmare!!!!

Hi @Former-Member@outlander

I am sure there are millions of women who have had long and happy relationships with men - but that hasn't happened for me - and I have found that the two men I had long term relationships with both wanted what they wanted and it seemed to be an imposition if I wanted something -

A couple of short term relationships seemed to be going the same way and never got passed the first post - so to speak - I do not feel inclined that a man has all the say in my life

But let's not give up too soon just in case - I am passed the idea myself

Yes Outlander - I did read what happened to you last night - I was in bed feeling wiped out and you had people helping you out so I felt I could let that go on - by the time I started reading you were in hospital and your mother was on her way in to get you and I am wondering if your family knew you were having so much trouble breathing because it doesn't seem as if anyone was helping you

Just reading at times gets me into the picture of your life much more clearly - I can see what you are up against - and it seems to me that you are really ill - physically as well as with all the anxiety - and depression - hormones upset - medication confusing - all of it - and I am also wondering at the wisdom of letting you go home so soon when you have had such severe breathing problems, It doesn't sound at all good

I am wondering how long you can keep going too - you sound totally exhausted which is something I really commisserate with right now

Sending lots of good thoughts and hopes for you

Dec

@outlander it was awful outlander it had oil in it all across a shore line a black oil slick and then and infestation of rats with one rat jumping on my back where it was about to bite me and then I woke up 😞