outlanderSenior Contributor
I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
I dont know how much longer i can keep going on like this anymore. I feel completely defeated right about now
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I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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I had a picture in my car that has all of us in it and that was the way i wanted them to remember me. If something had of happened to me that was the last pic they wouldve remembered me by @Sans911
Im safe now. Thats a start. Upset. Tired. Not really sure what to do now.
Im safe now. Thats a start. Upset. Tired. Not really sure what to do now.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander- you might feel strange for a bit. And understandable to feel a mix of emotions. Just take gentle care of yourself ok? Get some sleep tonight, try to eat something tommorow as I know before you weren't eating well. Just lots and lots of self care. I'm super glad you are still here. And I know lots of other forum members missed you. Big hugs my lil Sis 💛 💜 💙 💚
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
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Yes - that makes sense @outlander - all you told the nurse at the hospital is what you have been telling us and your mind is exhausted
I don't know enough about dissassoiation to comment on that but it really sounds as if your mind went to sleep for a while because everything was too much - it would be too much for me -
Oh boy
4 months without your period - that is not at all normal and you know that - of course the most likely problem is stress and PTSD - your body is jacking up on you because of all the stress you have been going through and so much responsibility
Of course you don't know what to do now - I get that - what do you do after having all that happen? But I am glad you got yourself to the hospital - and you are such a wonderfully kind person - for whatever reason you don't tell your mother what has happened to you in the past and what's happening now
We love you here - we all care so much
Sending more gentle hugs
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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I was very close this time sis. I might not have been here today if i had of went ahead with the rest of the demons. Id already sh'ed beforehand badly which got treatment but i was already in the midst of ending it all.
Ok sis ill try and be gentle. I really dont deserve it though. I feel like such an idiot.
I don't know if ill sleep tonight and i cant stomach much either.
I wish i could come lay with you @Sans911
Ok sis ill try and be gentle. I really dont deserve it though. I feel like such an idiot.
I don't know if ill sleep tonight and i cant stomach much either.
I wish i could come lay with you @Sans911
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Owlunar exhausted it is. Mind going to sleep is pretty muxh how they explained it. I couldnt cope any more so it shut down.
Ive had tests to see why my cycle isnt normal. They think its PCOS and could explain some of my other symptoms. If its a metabolic thing itll all show up through the tests performed. They think pcos because the longer i dont have y oeriod the more weight i gain. Aince the past 4 months ive put on nearly 9 kgs and it wont budge. And thats despite being unwell.
Thanks @Owlunar i really appreciate it. Alot.
Ive had tests to see why my cycle isnt normal. They think its PCOS and could explain some of my other symptoms. If its a metabolic thing itll all show up through the tests performed. They think pcos because the longer i dont have y oeriod the more weight i gain. Aince the past 4 months ive put on nearly 9 kgs and it wont budge. And thats despite being unwell.
Thanks @Owlunar i really appreciate it. Alot.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander-you deserve lots of tender care my sweet girl. And you are not an idiot. You are a sweet, thoughtful young woman who has been terribly hurt in life, and is suffering horrible emotional pain.
If you can't sleep, just rest. And eat something light, like soup or toast.
I'm right here with you ok. I'm sure @Former-Member is close by too. Just take tonight hour by hour if you have to.
You deserve a chance at a decent life outlander, and I'm believe that you will get that chance. I see great potential in you yet, so please stick around.
If you can't sleep, just rest. And eat something light, like soup or toast.
I'm right here with you ok. I'm sure @Former-Member is close by too. Just take tonight hour by hour if you have to.
You deserve a chance at a decent life outlander, and I'm believe that you will get that chance. I see great potential in you yet, so please stick around.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Aww sis your making my heart melt @Sans911
Ok hr by hr.
I need to settle abit though. My heart is racing and my chest hurts. It feels weird really liked bruised or something but its not bruised that i can see.
My my stomach is aching again.
By ill just lay here with you and nell. Im worried about her too.
Ok hr by hr.
I need to settle abit though. My heart is racing and my chest hurts. It feels weird really liked bruised or something but its not bruised that i can see.
My my stomach is aching again.
By ill just lay here with you and nell. Im worried about her too.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander I'll be awake for a while yet. Can you take something for the pain? And maybe get yourself a nice cup of tea? Have you had a shower today? I know it's late for you. Just make your comfortable so you have the best chance at rest. Maybe put on your smiling mind app to help calm you.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Owlunar - thank you for your caring, kind words
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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They took all my meds and only give me 2 days at a time for all my.meds and have had all other meda taken away including normal pain meds. Ive taken my doses already thagmt im allowed to have.
Yeah its nearly 1am here. Ive had showers and tea. Too tired to get back up now but im also awake. Awake but now wanting to move. @Sans911
Yeah its nearly 1am here. Ive had showers and tea. Too tired to get back up now but im also awake. Awake but now wanting to move. @Sans911
