Night Shift

Thank you @Former-Member for asking.

I am a bit upset as my son is starting to say I have delusions ... I told him that I had a few words with the girl and her dad. he is angry with me ... maybe I shouldnt have told him ... I need to stress that if she wants easy run of my house ... she needs to earn my trust back ... she did admit when I was with her dad that she had been talking a lot about me to my son.

I said to her I wanted to hear more good things about my son and how we had helped her and not start on about my visiting my exhusband all the time.

The dad is important in that he is a decent well- meaning abd skilled guy ... but his daughter was totally isolated and never went to school ... and he was a head honcho in the correspondence dept in ed dept ... go figure ... he says that she would never anything deliberately ... there is always her social skills excuse that comes up ... and I have allowed and given heaps for that ... she is 27 ...

I will probably see her at choir and then my son is going to her place for her birthday next weekend.

I did not demand more conversations ... which I thinbk we really need if it is going to get sorted ... I am going to ask for it on Thursday and give her a little vegan slice ...

Decided just give my son a wide berth ... but sad

I'm gonna say goodnight now .... dozing off a bit ...

Sleep well everybody 💕

@Faith-and-Hope I think I will be a life long learner but starting a career might be something different at my age. My lecturer emailed me this week to see if I would be coming back and my immediate reaction was to enrol then and there but as you've seen I can't hold a week together at the moment let alone a term or semester so I'll have to let it slide. It was for the women's ed course at Tafe which I love but can't afford to fail anymore because I have to drop out due to my constant mental health breakdowns.

Oh @Appleblossom it sounds like a really complicated web you have there. I'm glad you have stood up for yourself but sorry your son is not able to see everything for now. Maybe time will help too. I know it's hard but it sounds like you are doing it all the right way keeping all lines of communication open and giving time as well. Breathe deep, I really hope that this brings the outcome that you deserve so much. I think your son will come around too. Our boys seem to have a way of doing it when we least expect it. Thanks for sharing this. Thinking of you, sending hugs💜😊💐

Goodnight @Faith-and-Hope😊💜😴

Hi @Faith-and-Hope, looks like I've missed you in the crossover. Nightie night. Love that you saw dolphins five times this week.

Hi @Appleblossom, good to see you. Sorry the struggles with son's friend are still a problem and that things are a bit rocky with son at the moment too. Sending hugs and good wishes.

@Former-Member, we are alike in assessing ourselves as not able to function well enough in a consistent way to take on study or work. I think the way you describe it may be too hard on yourself. But I think it's wise to take things one step at a time. You are doing really good things in moving forward at the moment, though it might feel slow to you. There's Phams, there's the application you made of your own accord for the art therapy course. There's keeping in mind the goal of volunteering. This despite having really hard days every week, that you also consistently get through, partly by taking the initiative of reaching out here. You have also got through a recent relocation, which is always a huge thing. Rather than compare yourself harshly to other people, I hope you can give yourself some credit for what you are achieving.

@Appleblossom

I hope it's one of those things that will sort out in time ... but not too much time ... just sort of drift into a better place in the next days and weeks as everybody has a little think about how to play nicely together ....

If this girl is going to choir, hopefully her faith is engaged enough to be an active factor here too ... a little boot up the conscience never hurt anybody ....

@Former-Member

My S2 took time out from his uni studies this last six months, and took up short courses at a local art centre. It's not the art necessarily, but in that sort of setting you can turn up, or miss days, according to what is going on for you, without it being such a big deal, but it can give you a sense of achievement and focus on the good days. There was no homework, no pressure, just enjoying what they were doing in class in the moment.

Something that appeals to you might be available - music, relaxation class, water aerobics, scrap booking, walking group, etc sort of like a step between that involves some self development. Is that something the prams worker can help set up and maybe attend with you ?

Just a thought ....

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@Former-Member

Its okay- no need to apologise. My memory is not the best at times!

Yes the POF has been a rough journey for me and I was quite young when I was diagnosed at 34 years old. Its a bit of concern for me going through this so young and having the other health related issues with this. But I am trying to tackle this head on because I don't want to add other health problems into the mix.

Thanks for wishing me the best and I hope your MI improves so can have a better quaity of life too. I think its almost time for me to try to get some sleep. Goodnite and sweet dreams

Goodnight, @Former-Member, hope you get some good sleep. What you are achieving and your courage in the face of health difficulties is inspiring.

Goodnight @Former-Member. I hope you sleep well 💜😊😴

@Faith-and-Hope I am hoping to get into some programs at the local community mental health centre which are free. One is art therapy and another is mindfulness but I'm not sure what I s currently being offered as they have had big changes in staff recently. I have my assessment on the 8th August for it. One issue I have is I can't afford anything. It has to be free or very minimal cost. Once I know what I can do re the above programs then my phams worker and I will work out what we'll do which will help me move towards stability and volunteering. Once you've read this I think you'll be asleep 💜😊😴