Night Shift

@Former-Member That's why I'm glad the forums are anonymous.

I spent the years from 36-42 (now 53) not in a relationship and it was really good for me. I think it's important to have a period of getting to know yourself again as an adult after a long relationship or one that was traumatic. Plus with MH issues I needed to learn to manage them and not have too much demand put on me. And at that stage I still had a child at home with disability challenges to deal with as well. You have enough on your plate for now. I am sure your time will come, but even then I would say take it slowly learning to trust again. Give it time for them to prove themselves. And you to still have space to focus on your own needs and your kids.

@eth and @Former-Member, my blog entry is calling to me again so I think I'll sign of for now and do a little more writing. My brain is now wired after my foggy sleeping day. The night time giving me life once again. Hope you both have a good evening for what's left of it. May see you overnight if I'm up and on here again. Otherwise catch you next time. ox

Thanks @eth. I know I have so much on my plate. I'm glad you had your time to get to know yourself. I have my kids stuff for a few years to come I suppose too. and I know deep down I'm not ready. I can see many benefits to the kind of relationship you have too and @Mazaritas. I am very open minded with all this as with everything. My motto is pretty simple really as long as no harm is done and consent is involved then every adult relationship is ok.

Catch ya @Mazarita💜😊

Nite nite @Mazarita 🙂 see you next time.

@Former-Member I'm not going to last much longer myself. Have been on the computer since about 3 this afternoon! How old is your youngest son? Did your other son and his girlfriend come to stay already?

My 4 boys aged 16 - 21 @eth. They move in next week. My other son comes back from overseas in February to move in back here so I'll have 3 of my sons back plus the girlfriend in a small 3 bedroom 1 bathroom house with rumpus room as the 4th bedroom. But my boys are used to it. We've always lived in small houses. But I'm not used to them being so big all living full time under my roof so it will be interesting. Lovely to see you again. Have a good week. I hope your appointment goes well Tuesday and things become more routines again with J. 💜😊

Wow I didn't realise you had 4 kids - raising one was a challenge for me at times @Former-Member! Hopefully they contribute around the place with housework etc. Sorry but I've got to get me to bed, I'm trying to have a good sleep routine and for the last couple of weeks it actually seems to be starting to work. Good catching up with you today. I'll aim to be around a bit more than I have been. Thanks for the good wishes and back to you too. Stay strong 🙂

Hey @Faith-and-Hope, are you still around? Not crisis I promise😊

Its ok I'll not make it tonight, too sleepy, catch ya tomorrow 💜😊

Hey @Former-Member 😊

Took me a while to get to this post, and you are probably asleep now ...

See you in the morning maybe ...

🌷💕

Good morning @Mazarita@eth@Former-Member@Former-Member

@Mazarita I could not find it in draft.

Not sure what to do with my life. I hate losing emotional control. I'm a bad ass. I can put a mask on and be all cheery outside while suffocating inside.

Perhaps I should see my set backs as learning how to deal with the inner monster of memories. Perhaps i should see them as an opportunity for people to really find out how to help me. I hate being me.