Night Shift

@Appleblossom, as I've said before, I relate to some of the things you say about your son. But I don't have a mother in the house to model or oversee, except the one in my head, whose voice is a pale compared to my own these days. Poor mother in my mind, I need to listen to her wisdom more really. We are close to being a politics-free zone in this flat. I was once much more involved in political idealogy but it really just got me into a lot of emotional trouble without much real effect. Partner is so zany in his approach to ideas in general, it's nigh impossible to have a sensible conversation about that with him anyway, lol. Fun is good though, both as a parenting strategy and for its own sake I think. 🙂

Hi @eth

I'm watching the polls on television. I've had a difficult day with my husband today.......

I'm just having a sit down and about to start sewing a little patchwork placemat.

It's hard with my Mum. She so wants to be the queen of the world and I've cut down the communication. She doesnt call me but today, she cancelled having coffee with us: in that she told us she was feeling ill......When I didnt call her back, she called my husband. Then later, me on that a friend of mine who lives next to her may have cancer and hoping that she will see me again so I said, oh okay, I will visit you tomorrow.

If there is any shinenighans, I'm going. I've worked too hard to move on. When I read some people's stories on their parents who dont understand

what DEpression means

Nastiness to their children no matter what age

negating their grandchildren.

I just feel ill. I would NEVER treat my children, badly like my Mother and Father have done.

Yes. I have not always been a good Mum. For about 5-6 years, I had to apologise to my oldest son ...it took about 6 years for him to get his head around how badly I have treated him and so:

Being a parent....just so you can say sorry and in time, become a better parent. No matter what age your children are.

Night night everyone @Shaz51 @Mazarita @Appleblossom @Former-Member @BlueBay @Silenus @lisajane @Faith-and-Hope @MazaritaEVeryone

Night night, @PeppiPatty. After a hard day, I hope you have peaceful and happy dreams.

Yes it is a good idea to develop an 'internal mother figure' that has a few of our own values as well as the ones of our biological parents. @Mazarita Many women in spirituality talk about their God-mother or Female Creator Spirit or ... whatever works ...

I am really over politics in the media .. though I did do 3 years of it .. and feel insight into power relationships is key to many social justice and MI issues.

Hi @PeppiPatty Glad you are making mother decisions that you can get behind. ... we cannot control them just our reactions ... patchwork sounds great. I did some mending the other day YAY ... it has been a long time since needle and thread have been in my mits.

Dear @Mazarita,

Love this message: about your psychiatrist and you.

This is something that Im struggling with but since going on val...med...I feel so much more in control and........not feeling as guilty if I dont get everything done.

I've discovered that I put too much pressure on myself.

Mitts @Appleblossom

Another tab: youve been helping me on this journey girl. Thanks

Proud of you @comet

Ive gotta go night night but speak tomorrow

Haha, @PeppiPatty, 'mitts'. So glad you are getting some good benefit from the mood stabiliser. It's made a big difference to my life too in just the way you mentioned.

@Former-Member, I can feel that you are around. 🙂 Feel like chatting? How's the evening been so far?

@Appleblossom, yes, the mother figure, needs a bit of work in me still, clearly. Work in progress.