Night Shift

Thinking of you @Former-Member

💌 ........ 💐

No @Former-Member

You are not forgotten.

Walking or running or caring about how what you put in your mouth effects the world.

You also can give hope, believe it or not.

Hi Bella

@Former-Member I actually logged back on as I thought I just had to let you know it was beautiful the way you responded to @GonePirate 's anger on another thread. It was legitimate anger, but it is still hard to process and you picked it up so quickly and sensitively. Still thinking of you too @GonePirate hope you and your boy have managed a picnic in the park ... or a bush walk ... or maybe a sail ... whatever good that floats your boat.

@Faith-and-Hope

Thanks for sharing. It is so hard to 'let go'. I have to 'let go' of so many things in my life and my parents are one of them; my kids as they get older and move on with their own life; 'let go' of my own insecurities, vulnerability and other stuff.

I am so happy for my daughter who has found a lovely guy. She was hurt a few years ago by a guy who after 3 yrs decided to leave. He was living with us and I took him in as another son. Did so much for him. She was hurt and it took time to trust again. But now she is soooo happy and I am happy for her.

I know that in the next 5 years things will change again. We will probably just be the two of us as I am sure all the kids will be out. And my biggest wish is to be a grandma, i just cannot wait. Maybe then my life will be happy again.

Do you @Faith-and-Hope today is my son's birthday (the one overseas); gosh now i am crying. Why do i have to cry all the time. i am sick of crying, sick of my damn emotions (sorry)

I feel for you too and what you have to deal with. But sometimes it feels like i am on this journey all alone and it hurts so much, it's scary and it's loney 😞

I have been crying all morning because i feel empty. Letting go is so hard, i have to, i need to ....

I got a text during the night from my son saying he was at the Hong Kong airport for a stop over. All i can see is my son in this huge world travelling on his own.

I can't believe how emotional i am this morning. I need to write a birthday poem for him for today.

How the hell am i going to get through the next 3 1/2 weeks? 😞

Hi @BlueBay

It will take baby steps, one day at a time. And we are here for you. Keep talking, it's okay ..... if that is helping you to manage your worries, to just "get it out" ......

But keep busy too @BlueBay. Find things to do to distract you from your worries. Find other things to think about. Try to find three blessings in every day, and talking about your daughter, I can see one right there. Just keep moving forward from blessing to blessing, like stepping stones across a river.

I am glad your son sent a text from Hong Kong. You have had your first contact ..... I hope he has a lovely birthday. I know you miss him. They are very mixed feelings to miss someone, but also to wish them well ...... but you are doing it ❣

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OK, baby steps i have to remember!!!

Off to work now so i will be distracted but i am sure that from time to time i will be thinking of my son.

I can't wait to actually speak with him. Just to hear his voice and know he is okay.

I am going to tell hubby that i want to go to outpatient program tomorrow so i won't go with him to nursing home. instead we can email the manager with our concerns; that way i don't have to take time off work to go there. i need all the time off work for me when i go into hospital.

which reminds me i must ring my psych today.

thank you @Faith-and-Hope for being here for me; i am so glad that i can vent out here and let out my worries. there may be quite a few of these kinds of posts over the next few weeks.

i hope you are doing okay, hope you have a nice day 🙂

take care xxxooo

That sounds like a great plan @BlueBay.

Let me know how it goes ❣

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Hi @BlueBay

Count up the days and then each night cross them off the calendar on in your phone or wherever you keep track of events

There used to be winters when I started from 92 on the 1st of June and did this every morning - which was before we had insulation and a decent heater.

I am glad you are having your day of for your trip to the outpatients - what is their to discuss with your MILs care - it would help if you were part of the plan but it seems that this isn't happening - but maybe your financial affairs are a lot of the problem - and I have no idea how this will pan out - but you need that time with yourself and being at the hospital in your fragile state will get you into hospital more quickly

It's cold and rotten here - I know - I hope your day is half-way decent

I will be thinking of you

Decadian