Night Shift

Thanks @Former-Member

I had a look at Wik ipeada and read a bit about Personality Disorder - that is interesting - I didn't get time to read much - late at night - didn't need a new idea to work on overnight - I do that sometimes

But I thought about it anyway - I am interested - and I had a bad day - they happen - it would have been enough to have a bunch of tuff stuff - but my toxic sister had to get into the day - and while she is toxic I don't want or need her in my life

But she is welcome to be - if she cleans up her act - I think she has personality disorder because she is still doing the stuff that worked for her when she was an annoying little sister - and I have had one or more good Iooks at myself too - and I have had the courage to change - and grow - and know I have a temper even if I rarely use it - and I am not sure of anything except I am not sure of anything - that's not a typo

Okay - toxic sister - um yes - I got out of jury duty when my kids were not much more than babies and never got called up again - and glad indeed I am not a solicitor or anything in that field - or a judge - I do not want to judge anyone and that includes the toxic sister

So maybe she doesn't have anything wrong with her - but if this were true - would she wait until she has reason to get into my life and stir things up - though I never react in anyway she can see

No - I am not going to say anything about what she does - I am emotionally fragile - or so I was dxd - and that's not her fault - and she may not even know that

But oh my - how can I not love the little sister I wanted so badly? - I do - and I know that she grew up in the same home to the same parents as I did

It is so hard to love someone - and not be able to help loving them - when my guard hairs stand up when I get a text from her about something I have already told her -

It's a problem for me - and I wish it was otherwise

Aw - it was a bad day today 😞

Decadian

Warm wishes to you @Decadian

Hi @eth, glad to see you. Understand that need for rest time after being in social contact non-stop for two days and for the need to take some time for reflection on the session tomorrow. Adding another voice to the well wishes for it going well. Looking forward to hearing about it afterwards if you feel like sharing.

Hiya @Former-Member, it went really well. I've decided to continue through to the 10 sessions after all. The new approach she is taking with me worked well in the session today. It turns out the slightly disgruntled email I sent her a few weeks ago has helped us make a bit of a breakthrough in our therapeutic relationship. I felt today that I was able to talk to her on a more real level and that she was responding in a way I found more authentic too. I have nightly homework from her again, actually much more than I was doing, but with a much more positive focus that I'm happier with. Thanks for following up with me on that. 🙂