Night Shift

Do you think there's been a trigger to how you are feeling @Mazarita?

Hi @Faith-and-Hope, good that you are looking on the bright side of your husband leaving again and that you may get a better sleep tonight. I've been reading a bit about eating disorders since you've been talking about it. I have a friend with a kind of food addiction that has brought major problems in her life (huge weight gain and associated health problems). I realise your husband probably has an opposite kind of problem to this but it's been interesting to consider the wider issues associated with eating disorders. It's very hard to know how to help my friend and unfortunately all I can see is things getting worse for them. The best I can do is accept and love really.

@eth, I often get this unsettled feeling before going to bed really. Tonight though it's probably especially related to the waiting game on the video. I've been checking for messages from the writer many times throughout the day and evening and it looks as though she hasn't had a chance to even read my message to her yet (I sent it to her on Facebook). She accepted my friendship request earlier in the day so I was hoping for a response to the message fairly quickly. I just have to be patient, which is not a strong point in me really.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

@plasmo good that you are seeing your dr. you've mentioned having health problems quite a few times. I hope everything turns out to be not so serious or easily treatable.

Ah @Mazarita you know what they say - patience is a virtue - I say yeah - about that ..... I find it hard too. It's no wonder you're keen after all the hours you've put into it.

@plasmo, good on you for getting yourself into bed even though you were in the middle of watching something.

@eth, yeah, the patience thing. I do get easily agitated inside about things even when it's not at all apparent to others. Sometimes I think my bipolar is a nervous system disorder of some kind. Or perhaps it's that I'm in a state of inner 'hypervigilance' most of the time, again without it being apparent in my outward manner. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. Mostly I just feel kind of wired, as you described it, and that's probably just the way I'm wired. Whatever the reason, it seems I just have to find a way to live with it, which I have done to a fair extent over time, even if the shape of my life does not fit the 'norm'.

@Faith-and-Hope yeah it should be ok

@Former-Member, there's even the possibility of getting no reply at all about the video, which would be the worst of all. But even if that happens, I will get over it, once I've gone through the emotional ride with it all. Just in the thick of it at the moment. I do get quite obsessed with these projects.

I hear you @Mazarita and echo what you said.

Hey @Former-Member I do freak out when they fight but tonight I'm just angry and even wider awake because of that. Luckily I have two really nice neighbours in the block here and it's only 9 flats, not one of those huge rabbit warrens.